I feel dead inside.

[Kstar07]

I have chronic pain, each day I go to work come home, drink and smoke then go to bed I wake up and do it again. They days are so sad I try to sleep through them . Does any one else fell that way?

[gajh]

Hello and Welcome. Are you diagnosed with depression?

[Kstar07 in reply to gajh]

yes

[gajh in reply to Kstar07]

Are you on any medication or in therapy? Do you have any support at all?

[Dolphin14]

Kstar07

Welcome to this supportive community

I'm so sorry you are struggling. I read your bio. Are you still able to get out to work or are you no longer able to do so?

Do you have a therapist? Your quality of life is being greatly impacted. Is anyone around you seeing this?

We're here to support you

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[blackcat64013]

Hi Kstar07,Thank for your post in your forum.

When our mental health takes over our rational thinking, we tend to make what other people might call "sad, mad or bad" decisions.

Sometimes this includes thinking we are the only person going through this. In fact, the opposite is true. This why the doctors and psychologists have been able to put together diagnostic criteria for all kinds of conditions, including mental health and chronic pain.

From what I have experienced, a consult with a general physician can be of benefit. This doctor doesn't specialise in one area but looks at how all of our body systems are or are not working together.

I was diagnosed with 2 conditions I was aware but 2 more were affecting my kidney and 🫁 lungs.

Once we had a treatment plan for all 4 issues, my health looked and I almost felt like a new person.

I hope you will find some comfort from knowing you aren't alone 💜 🐈‍⬛

[Thor1467]

sorry to hear this. I do deal with chronic pain. In my 50s and have disk disease, fibromyalgia and major depressive disorder with anxiety. It’s been a trying time these past 6 months. Lost my entire career too. So , yes, I’m home bound, alone and trying to put myself back together. Therapy can be helpful. Dealing with pain daily can cause depression and then the depression leads to more pain. I get it. Do you mind me asking what kind of pain you have?

[Cinder87]

yes. I have felt that way for the last 6 months. I feel like I’m emotionally unavailable for my family. That I can’t focus on being the sole bread winner and get through a day of work without breakdown. Constantly feeling like a failure to everyone.

[Kstar07 in reply to Cinder87]

Girl, you do your best!

[Kstar07 in reply to Kstar07]

Can anyone relate?

[Kstar07 in reply to Kstar07]

fuck that ! Sorry

[Dolphin14 in reply to Kstar07]

?

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[pbiel]

buy yourself a beauty bath bomb, have your drink ready and lay in the bath for 30-45 minutes. your meds are not working so go back and talk to doc, you sound like you have a full plate with daughter, keep going, you are awesome for that reason if nothing else