checking in

[Needtovent]

Once again wanting to know I’m not alone out there in this big world of anxiety. Yesterday at this time I posted under a different name (cause I couldn’t log on as me - Needtovent ). Was about my vacation in uk, husband taking ill, panic consumed me. Long day of travel and got to our ne xt destination. Husband feeling a bit better. We’ll see in AM if he wants to use urgent care here, since yesterdays attempt failed. The night time is getting to me again, so I pick up my phone and seek this community. Not sure if what I’m feeling is still anxiety or if I’m getting ill. I just wanna go home so will see about that in AM. Can you talk to me? Please?

[Needtovent]

can anyone talk to me? I think things are resolving, them more setback’s!!!

[litethatnevergoesout in reply to Needtovent]

i should be sleeping

[litethatnevergoesout in reply to Needtovent]

It’s middle of the night in the UK and closing in on midnight in the US I think it’s just a low traffic time for anxiety and depression support. only insomniacs and self centered complainers on right now

[Adlon57 in reply to litethatnevergoesout]

It is 4.50am here in west UK cannot sleep, ADHD for years, retired and on my own, mind too awake, sleep what's that? Trying to concentrate to sleep stay cool😎 nothing, heart rate too fast, terminally ill, broken skull, rib cage structure [straw like], brain ALWAYS working too fast especially this time! Petrified of dementia, just around the corner, PD just like my Dad, fighting tooth and nail, against it, so tired!🥱

[litethatnevergoesout in reply to Adlon57]

Woah adlon57 deep breaths stretch have a water maybe … legitimate feeling scared of dementia witnessed my dad decline and pass away due to complications from it.

stay cool helps sleep for sure

what’s the broken body from? terminally ill?

[Adlon57 in reply to litethatnevergoesout]

Double epileptic seizure, broken skull, deformed rib cage "untreatable" damage due to epileptic seizures over 50 years!

Water bottle right beside me👌

[litethatnevergoesout in reply to Adlon57]

amazing

[litethatnevergoesout in reply to Adlon57]

I just read your bio… Adlon57

[Adlon57 in reply to litethatnevergoesout]

My GP calls me "one off" a survivor!👍

[litethatnevergoesout in reply to Adlon57]

what are your plans for today? you’re the original cool legend

[litethatnevergoesout]

did you delete your post from yesterday? Needtovent

[Needtovent in reply to litethatnevergoesout]

No it’s listed as user travelinginuk.

[litethatnevergoesout in reply to Needtovent]

it’s gone I searched user travelinginuk and nothing came up… maybe HU deleted it?

anyways how are you holding up? deep breaths and stretch have a water…

[litethatnevergoesout in reply to Needtovent]

feeling any better?

[Needtovent in reply to litethatnevergoesout]

Thank you for checking back. Long story of our travels up to this point. First half was great. Then his not feeling well, I began panicking. Urgent care in Liverpool fell through. Decided to tough it out. Now In Amsterdam for last part of trip and planning on going to urgent care here. My mind is racing, maybe I’ve got cancer - never had this fear but our pastor just died of pancreatic cancer in 4 months time!!!I’m not eating much, trying to stay hydrated. If I’m not sleeping it’s better to get up so I’m walking around hotel. I don’t think we’ll get to any of our planned visits 😔. Gotta go back and check on hubs! Thanks

[litethatnevergoesout in reply to Needtovent]

you’re welcome.

[Needtovent in reply to litethatnevergoesout]

Was in touch with Dolphin14 about the messed up accts. Perhaps she removed it. It’s weird cause I have the emails showing the responses, but now can’t access them…

[MadBunny in reply to Needtovent]

Individual members cannot remove others members' accounts or posts.

[Needtovent in reply to MadBunny]

Oh I thought maybe she was an admin…

[MadBunny in reply to Needtovent]

Really? Is she listed as such?

[litethatnevergoesout in reply to MadBunny]

Dolphin14 is not an admin here. she’s a moderator on heal my ptsd.

[Dolphin14 in reply to litethatnevergoesout]

Thank you for clarifying that for everyone. I wouldn't have seen it if you didn't call my attention to it

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[Dolphin14 in reply to Needtovent]

I just wanted to clarify that I'm not on the admin team on this site. You can find the admin team under the members list.

I just wanted to clear up the speculation.

I did not indicate in any way that I was part of the admin team. I am a peer here like everyone else. In pm I stated I have never changed my user name so I wasn't sure of why this happened. I said I would stick to the one that worked for you.

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[MadBunny]

No you didn't.

[Dolphin14 in reply to MadBunny]

I didn't think I made any indication of that

❤️🐬

[Needtovent]

Dolphin you have been a support through this. Thank you so much. I was just speculating, I’m sure I screwed everything up when I tried opening an acct with different email, yet somehow my phone wants to sign me in with original acct. tech stuff is beyond me.

Thanks to everyone who is checking in. That’s what I need when I’m trembling.

[litethatnevergoesout in reply to Needtovent]

You’re out of country, expectations of culture leisure and travel instead you’re unwell and frantic, how fortunate to lean on the community here for support and relief, that’s really what’s important, wonderful it was a success.

[Needtovent in reply to litethatnevergoesout]

After prayer, you folks were my next thought. Did not want to worry my kids. Just had another little melt down to learn that urgent care is by appt only - no walk in unless we go to ER. Which he didn’t want to do as he’s a bit feeling better, Covid negative x 2 - so we’re going home. Managed to get us on same flight that we’d be taking in 2 days. Never thought I could do it so rushed and in my phone, but husband took over all the packing up and checking out. Bye to Netherlands but this feels like the right thing to do. Phew! I need to exhale!

[Dolphin14 in reply to Needtovent]

I'm glad I could be supportive when you needed help.

I hope you and your husband can enjoy the rest of your trip

[MadBunny]

Exactly!