i am having a difficult time. 🥺😔

[celestialceremony]

there's a lot to talk about. i am not sure what to do about a lot. i have ptsd and am not diagnosed autistic although it has been brought up seriously to me by a trusted professional. this morning i lost my silicone rubber ear plugs and seemed to have a melt down. so much sound in my ears. i had a difficult time finding the foam ones i have, which admittedly weren't when i was them and air dry, seem to itch my ears.

also, my sister got upset that i talked on social media about missing my original room and it makes me sad my sister has taken it over.. the view is helpful for my mental health and it has felt diminutive a bit (although i didn't say that, was just trying to express my appreciation and a bit my sadness feelings about not having it.) this morning she was arguing on the phone with my mom saying i better not share her location? idk, seemed creepy to me-- i don't know why exactly i would do that. sounded like she was worried i was trying to make her unsafe? that confuses the heck out of me idk..

my mom is upset about me being in multiple abusive relationships and told me she's "tired of bailing me out," after initially telling me the ending of 'the story?' would be all good.

they even want to write up a contract and told me i can't write about them at all on social media.. i am not trying to start a fight-- it seems aggressive and territorial unfortunately their responss.. i just want to be able to freely talk and it gets to me my mom and sister especially try to make such a problem-- i don't get it.. 😕

i still need to get back on insurance to go back to therapy.. i have had difficulties with paperwork even though i have submitted such on more than one occasion. 😭

[celestialceremony]

admittedly even when they are washed and air dried, still itch*

[Dolphin14]

Welcome to the community

There seems to be quite a bit going on. I hope you can get that paperwork in soon so you can get back to therapy and sort this out

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[celestialceremony in reply to Dolphin14]

i appreciate it. i feel like my parents want me to sign an nda 😭

[Dolphin14 in reply to celestialceremony]

What's an nda?

[PhoebeOphelia]

I smiled when I saw your reference to earplugs. I have PTSD from crazy noise I grew up with and couldn’t escape. When I discovered foam earplugs, it felt like a miracle! Finally some control over the noise! I have a favorite brand (EAR - the yellow ones) and when they got hard to find at the local pharmacy, I started buying them in bulk from Amazon. Such a small thing can make such a big difference!