I really am falling apart and I am worse than before. Medication therapy hospital visits do not help. I can't get up from bed or move after all it is almost a year and I am hurting my mother I can't care for heri feel suffocated in my room I zm scared all thd time. Everything hurtsI can't look st myself or dress or go outside. I am in torture I am scared to go to the hospital and get admitted.
I am not ok and can't handle it anymore - Anxiety and Depre...
I am not ok and can't handle it anymore
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Hey Alexa! What's going on? I'm here to help and give advice if I can!
There is no way I can cope anymore.
Alexapal, taking care of your mother during this critical time for you is making
you worse. Is there anyway you can get help for your mom so that you can be
admitted as in patient? As you can see, unless you take care of you first, you can't
possibly take care of your mom.
Medication, therapy and hospital don't help because the cause isn't being addressed.
As long as you are feeling overloaded with the situation, you will continue to feel
physical and emotional pain. Nothing works because you've given up on the fact
that anything will.
No matter what we use for help, it is only as good as what we believe in.
When we give up on ourselves, everything shuts down inside of us.
I care Alexapal. 
xx
Thank you. I am honestly tired of this feeling it is getting worse and I sm heart broken and feel like a failure. I don't wznt to be here.
I understand what you are feeling Alexapal but you are definitely not a failure.
We can't fail at something that we have tried. There are times that life hands us
too much at one time, making it difficult to know which way to go first.
It will get worse before it gets better and that can only happen by something
changing in your life.
You need to be here Alexapal. You are now a part of our community. There was
a reason you were brought here at this time and place. This is your safe place to
come whenever you need us.
I'm all about hope and positivity in life. Everything happens for a reason. A reason
to learn and experience life helps us to grow. I'm sorry your mother is so sick.
And you are struggling as well. But lean on us, take our hand and allow us to walk
the walk with you. You are not alone., xx
Alexapal.
April of 2023. Your description and other posts might have been Craig’s. I felt for certain there was no hope. The pain was was more than this man could take anymore. Very unfortunately so many of us on here can relate to this discussion
Please, please please talk to us . Tell us what you’ve tried. Tell us why you’re afraid to go to the hospital again. Tell us anything you can so us fellow sufferers can brainstorm and see if there’s something new that you can try to save your life and relief from pain.
Damn girl! I was toast, but I also knew my life had value if I could find that answer. I tried something different. Maybe I got lucky. Maybe it was in God’s timing. Who knows?
Please don’t quit. Please let us try to help
Much love
Craig
I can't cope with this pain I don't want yo be here. I found a man that I could havd a life with the depression ruined it. There is so much turmoil in every area of my life and I am 46 no security. I fear that things are going to get worse. I sm so do scared Craig. I am suffering too much.
Think back to when you had a good day. Where your mind wasn’t engulfed and do your best to answer this question.
If your symptoms were highly manageable could you chip away at the rest?
It has been so long since I had a good day. I have been begging doctor to change my meds had to go through hospital system where it turned out to be a very bad experience twice. I tired s new medication Trintelix I reacted I got very very itchy now I zm still on prozac and clonszapam and I feel like I am going to die. I can't handle the heart break of loosing my boyfriend I can't handle my mom being on walker and I have to do everything when I can't even get out of bed. I asked my doctor to please ask if I could end my life. I pray to God that I am suffering I feel like I have failed I gained so much weight my face hsir can't look at myself. I have no security no friends no family the support in person is non existent. My boyfriend tried. Who wants to be with someone so depressed like me? It is all my fault. I was high functioning to not at all functioning. I won't get up at all I am scared to drive. I am now with my mother and can't do anything for her. I want to die because I lost myself completely it is really my fault. This pain is too much and thd mornings when k wake up are horrible. My sister came to hrlp but she yells and argues and scares me. She scares my mom she is the only one but comes with a cost. I dong want to be here. I want someone to help me not live.
my dear friend, I and others totally get that you don’t wanna be here anymore.
We are not in that business though. We are here to help you figure out how to stop the depression.
that’s what matters.
Your very sick, just like someone with a organ issue or shattered leg.
I’d like you to listen to me really closely here.
In 2019 I moved to Texas and met the absolute total love of my life. Tall, sexy ,funny ,beautiful Texas gal.I still had depression, anxiety, ruminations, family, not giving a shit about me and actually hurting me through manipulation and control issues that they have and still battling low self-esteem that I have worked against all my life but we fell in love and for a while it was amazing just like yours.
The problem was, I hadn’t found the answers yet, so just like you my symptoms tore my relationship apart.
Do you hear me sweet girl. MY SYMPTOMS..
Not me. Not you. Our symptoms don’t make up who we are. They’re just part of what we have like that damaged organ or that shattered leg.
Let’s try hard again to find an answer to it so you can find your life again
Sure By the way, my loss that amazing wife beginning of 2023, but I found answers to my extreme and awful pain. I’m so sorry that you had bad experiences at the hospital, that’s not how it’s supposed to be but you can’t give up to you.
Try again something whatever that is. Another hospital trip, another doctor. I get it it’s hard to just get up and go out the door and you’re afraid to drive so spend your last dime on an Uber or an ambulance or whatever the Frick it takes to give it one last shot to change this all around
I met this new amazing lady. I’m pretty sure I’m in love again. My symptoms are 90% reduced and As I said I was in the same exact spot as you in 2022.
IT COULD HAPPEN FOR ME, WHY THE HELL CAN It NOT HAPPEN FOR YOU!
Fix the depression and then your life will come in line. I guarantee it!!!
Come on.
Let’s go!
Save you life
I wrote a whole bunch and it erased.
It’s ok. Just keep talking
Wow Craig, I am keeping your response - it is inspiring to me. I wish I was in your position.
Hello Alexapal, I am so sorry to hear how you feel. I hardly ever give advice on tthis forum, but if your mum needs a carer, you have to contact your local council and at the same time, perhap something could be done for you. But at a time like this, your mum would be better off with a carer who doesn't have cares of their own to consider - which you truly have. Please summon up the strength and motivation to pick up the phone.
Thank you for caring.
AlexPal, I can relate to your situation. I'm surrounded by people who either don't believe in mental health issues or simply don't care, including my husband, whose behavior has become toxic and abusive. My sister hardly ever reaches out, and unfortunately, medications haven't been effective for me. While I can manage to get out of bed, leaving the house is a challenge. But I want to emphasize that what you're going through is undeniably real. It's not your fault; it's just like any other illness. If someone had cancer, we'd treat it seriously, right? Mental illness deserves the same respect and understanding. At 38, I had to relocate to live with my mom and stepdad after a breakdown where I lost everything. Despite my struggles, my mom never showed any interest in my well-being, and her husband's behavior was appalling. Thirteen years later, she's now wheelchair-bound, and when I tried to help, they both lashed out at me. Eventually, I had to cut ties with her, which was incredibly painful but necessary for my own well-being. So, I understand your situation intimately. Being a caregiver, even when you're in good health, is incredibly challenging. With my own struggles—MDD, PTSD, and anxiety—even if my mom were the best, I wouldn't be able to care for her. Have you considered if someone else could care for her or if a nursing home might be an option, so you can seek help? Are there hospitals in Canada where you can explore different medications or treatment options? Do you have a support system you can rely on? Remember, mental illness is just that—an illness. Being a caregiver can exacerbate it, but it's not your fault. Please let us know this information so we can help you.
I have noone to help I am alone. Thank-you for sharing. I am feeling like I csnt go on at sll. I am feeling like I am drugged no energy shame guilt abd fear I won't take the smallest steps
All I can say then is keep talking to us. Even though I sound OK, I am not. There are moments I want to go home. I am on here talking to you because I know what we go through and I give a damn about you. If I were there, I would sit and hold your hand, give you a hug and even help you with your joints. Depression gives us body pain or exacerbates whatever is going on. So I give a damn about you. If you believe in a higher being, that higher being gives a damn.
I am crying because I can't take it anymore. I feel lime I cant go on.
I feel it may be the medication. I had two bad experiences at a hospital too. It sucks. I am not sure if you've tried several anti-depressants. Again, not sure how Canada works, can you get to an out-patient psychiatrist within a week or so where you can start weaning off real slow from current anti-depressant and try another? Also, I would check the side effects of the current anti-depressant you're on to see if it causes lethary and body pains.
It has been a nightmare with the doctors and hospitals and getting my meds looked after and it is a real nightmare. I will explain in morning. I am having a real struggle.
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I think you're on to something there PoseyLane.👏🏼
I'm sorry your going through such a hard time.
I understand of not wanting to be here. I felt that way. There was a point in my life where I felt like I was achieving all my dreams then it was suddenly snatched from me. I blame myself for it being taken from me.
However I'm realizing that it's not all my fault. I couldn't predict what the future holds. I can't control other people. People are going to do what they are going to do. All I can do is to pick up the pieces and try again. It's hard not going to lie.
Hospital shouldn't be scary. But I get why you are afraid. But if you feel like things are all crashing down and you need help then yes, I say go to one.
I think the stress of watching a beloved parent getting older is hard. I know I take care of my mom. Cleaning up messes and accidents is hard. I didn't really have family help. My sister IG lives in another state. My other sister JG was being a dolt. But now she's back in our lives. Even though I don't like her very much for what she did to the family. She realizes she's "grateful for having a loving mother".
As for the relationship ending with your boyfriend. I know it hurts. But it's not all your fault. Relationships require work from both parties. Especially if you know the person you know you are getting involved with has some issues. Sometimes people don't take it seriously. Think depression is just being sad. And it'll go away by tomorrow. But I know that you're hurting. All of this is just a lot to bare.
It doesn't help mattes when "family members" don't understand depression, anxiety etc.
We do the best we can with what we got.
I wish you healing and love 🫂❤️ You are not alone here. You are so much more than you think you are.
Please tell me I feel like j am the only one that can't get out of bed and shower. Ioved showers now I am scared to take one.
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Hi Alexapal -
I can relate to this. I'm usually a clean & meticulous person. When I became very depressed & anxious, I didn't feel like showering & washing my hair. Partly because I was achy & sore but depression, inflammation and mental weariness lent to it. The other part was a 'who cares' attitude. Each day I was barely able to get to the bathroom sink, put a hot towel on my face, brush my teeth and run a comb through my hair. I did this for one year, that's right 1 year. Same with the dishes in the sink on my table, counters and stove.
Was ashamed to let anyone in my apartment, not even my landlord. Again the same reason as above. I bought paper plates, plastic cups. I ate out of cans & used the micro wave to cook. I shopped at night, took my garbage out at night to avoid people.
I think you get the picture. Well it didn't happen overnight, but it did happen. I had a good day finally and washed a few dishes, and a few hours later I was more until the whole kitchen was done. I was tired & sore but oh what an accomplishment! It started with little things. My cardiologist says that after a major surgery like a triple by-pass that patients get depressed, well...I had my heart surgery in the middle of Covid-19, and it's taken me over 2 years to heal. I'm not there yet but I'm closer than 3 years ago.
I looked at the shower several times a day and got mad at myself & felt guilty each time. Yet I knew that I wanted & needed to bathe, but something held me back. I used adult wipes to clean with, not quite the same but filled in the gap. One day I woke up & I found the courage to try. One baby step at a time. Soon the soothing water began to feel inviting & I was immersed in the best shower I had in a long time. That was nearly 2 months ago now. Things are back to where they were when I was managing, but they're so much better now that I didn't give up.
You will and can do this in time! Let us know of your progress, even if it's 1 dish, or sticking your toe in the drain, it's progress. We're waiting to hear. Prayers! Navar🙏
Alexapal in reply to
Thank you for sharing with me. I am so glad to hear you are feeling better. I do not see it now I have no hope no light because I am loosing loved ones and I am unable to look at myself in the mirror I can't stand my hair face or body I want to hide I feel like a shell. Everyone is being so kind. Thank you.
I imagine if you line us all up, we might appear disheveled, with bags under our eyes. Sorry, I'm visualizing my tribe here – all of us, laughing and accepting each other, finding solace in shared experiences.
I'll say this: taking a warm shower can offer some relief, at the very least. I've been in so much pain, like you, that I've sat on the bottom of my shower, letting the warm water loosen my muscles while tears streamed down my face. And if I had the energy, I'd draw a bath with Epsom salt – it took a lot, but it helped alleviate the pain.
But most importantly, please keep talking to us. I wish we could physically surround you, offering hugs and comfort.
I love hot showers. I think a lot of people with anxiety do actually.
Anyways I think because you are going through this period of depression is keeping you from the shower. Along with anxiety
First ask yourself, why are you afraid of taking a shower? Do you think you will have a panic attack in the shower? What is it about getting into the shower that scares you?
I had a brief fear of getting into the shower when my anxiety was really high. But my therapist told me to take precautions. Because I was scared of getting a panic attack in the shower. So she advised me to tell people in my home I'm taking a shower. And take my cell phone into the bathroom. Maybe not take a shower...what about a bath? If a bath is not feasible. Then take a shower with the door slightly ajar.
So I did these things. And with time I start to realize that I was okay. I am okay. I am safe inside my body. And now I'm back to taking regular showers.
There is an app called Dare it's available on Android and iTunes. It's really help me with the anxiety part.
You are so strong and courageous. When you get out of bed that's a win. I know for you it doesn't feel like it now. But that's big.
I know you can do this! I believe in you 🫂❤️
I think inam having major body image self esteem issues. The meds changed my body my hair fell oug and ig is not long anymore. I dont walk or excercise so it's my fault I wont do snything or even shop or drive. Things are really getting bad. Once again thank you for caring.
Hey it's okay. Don't be so hard on yourself. I haven't workout in sometime myself. It takes time to adjust to meds and to work up the nerve to do things. Sometimes we have to give time time. If that makes sense. I know patience isn't one of my strong suits. I want things for me to change quickly. But it's not like that. My hair fell out too but that was because of my thyroid medicine. Side effect. But it's growing back.
Sometimes stress can cause hair to fall out. But it can come back.
Your body is just at war with itself
Dare app is free to use by the way. Sure you don't get everything that the paid version has. But even the free version is useful.
I'm happy to be there for you. You deserve love and happiness 🫂❤️
Wow - it is your meds. I was on an old one that they don't prescribe anymore where I gained 20lbs in less than two months and I eat very well. I was losing my hair due to covid. I get that you're sayint about the shower. What a PITA. Can I ask, what is the pain with mental health doctors/psychiatrists in Canada? Are they weird - like most of them in the U.S.? Hard to get into? They don't listen? All of the above? Just curious to see if you go through the same thing I went through, which I think most of us go through, because they are weirdos. Again, I get how you feel. So you are not comfortable in your skin. The other thing - did you get you4 hormones checked (I believe your profile said you're in your 40s. OBGYNs shoukd check that and your thyroid. Yes, women's thyroid could change with age. Stress can make our hormones go bonker also makibg out depression and anxiety worse. I found 11 days prior to my period , my depression and anxiety took a bigger nose dive. I have an app that tracks all that. I am on HRT. My thyroid was a tad off -it helped. It doesn't get rid of depression, but it helped not take that nose dive.
It is a lot for me to take a shower. I get out of bed to take care of my dog, but I go downstairs and sit on my couch in a robe. I made it a goal to at least change out of my pjs into sweats rather than a robe. So basically I am not in my bed, but I am on my couch and feel very frozen.
I wanted to say Thank you for caring I feel so negative and I want this agony go end. I don't have a stable secure home to be in. Today I am traumatized by the way I look and feel I can't eat or even drink water. I am still laying down scared for thd morning.
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Beds are cozy & safe aren't they. You can pull the covers up to your chin, curl up in the fetal position and the poof the world seems to go away! We can lay there as long as we want & no one will bother us, until your mind reminds you that you're still dealing with this or that. You cannot trust your mind. Deep down you know who you are & the truth. Keep talking to us. You'll come out of this.🤗
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It is like the world is falling apart around me and all I czn do is stay in the bed. In pain everywhere possible. I have so many worries and they are really heavy to bare. I really am unable to just move to make myself better. Why won't I make myself better.
yes I can, I have heart failure diabetes GCA neuropathy, my wife has terminal cancer and I take 23 medications a day and in bedd for a long time constantly ill, We got got help from our County care trust and Macmillan luckily luckily Storyline helps my anger and depression
Hi Alexapal, I just finished reading everything. I read that you mentioned several times that you can't stand the pain. Can you name your pain for us? Is is physical pain, mental pain(head aches etc.) Heart pain from the broken relationship, disappointment, anger(if so at whom?) That would really help us pinpoint something concrete so we can point you in the right direction You can see that everyone of us cares about you. We don't want to see you gone. There is help but you've got to ask & seek it. God will not do what He expects us to do for ourselves. Your guardian angel has been looking out for you... You're Here! Give yourself a chance to be happy by not giving up on you! You're in my thoughts tonight.💛🤗
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I am freaking out mental emotional pain an now my body is hurting all over I am in pure fear. I looked at my face and hsir and I went back to bed I have been in bed for days. I have no job no friends at all lost all of them because I lost myself in depression and now my relationship is breaking. He really is a man that I finally found to be happy but now I am devastated and I am shaking I can't stop shaking at my mother's I see she needs help I won't move. I sm scared to get up to shower I have no purpose other than to dissapear I feel so alone. I want to die please. I called 988 all night did not help.
Hey Alexapal, I know the feeling all too well. It has happened alot in the past 3years of my life the worst. I have tried to kill myself many times, but there is a reason you are here still. Take deep breathes and sit at your computer or phone and as shitty as you could sound sing to your favorite songs and just keep going until your tired or it becomes day. Night time is really messed up and by far is the most horrible to deal with. You need friends and support which i can count on half my hand I have of and I take day by day.. I do not know the rules of crap here too well yet. But PM me I will send you my email and phone number I am 48 I am not looking for anyone for any reason, I had my heart torn out when my wife cheated on me multiple times and my 4 daughters were taken from me far away. I do not trust anyone at all anymore but friends by phone and making people laugh is something I got boatloads of I am australian so I am cruder then an oil tanker. Be kind to yourself and sing!. J
There is a reason I am sure I saw your post as I already have plans on how to remove myself so I can stop my children from suffering as my ex grounds and punishes my girls for being civil with me and gives gifts for not coming to stay overs for parent time. I have nothing left to pay lawyers with after giving her everything and selling what I had left to pay for lawyers to protect my girls. I have constant nightmares my girls are under glass in water and I cannot smash the glass and many many more horrid things. PTSD ontop of depression is pure pain you always goto the extremes.
I am so sorry. I have MDD and PTSD. I am am an adult child from a a dysfunctional family. It is the reverse....so don't read it and think you are like my father My dad is a bad man and would pull crap on my mom. Guess what, without my mother telling us anything, we figured it out even when we were young, but old enough (like elementary school) to talk about it and do something about it. Then I got older and when I was on my own, I was able to tell my dad f off. If your girls are old enough, they understand, but are too scared to say much. Can you text them and let them know that you love them and want to see them? If you can, I would do it often. Tell them things that might remind you of them. Even if you can't, because of your ex, they know what's up. When they're old enough, you can let them know the simple truth. They'll figure it out. My little niece was very curious and trying to figure out "family secrets." She figured out on her own that my mother/her grandmother, picks men over us, her children. Yeah, my mom isn't great either. We don't tell the kids this stuff because what it doesn't affect my nieces and nephews. They don't like their grandmother. She sent a penny to my nephew for his birthday to try and punish him because she doesn't hear from him. They already didn't like her and laughed becsuse she made herself look petty. Just keep in mind your ex is shooting herself in the foot. Be around because your kids will look for you when they're old enough to be able to make their own decisions. Trust me, they love you, but probably are too scared to do anything while under your ex's roof. As far as your PTSD, this generation of kids are bringing mental health to the forefront they are making it OK. It is amazing. I tell my niece, her generation is awesome beause of that.
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Good morning,
I am sorry that you are feeling all of this anxiety! Do you know what is the cause of all of this anxiety? Medicines and hospitals should be your last resort for helping you out. A lot of medicines today have many different side effects making a person feel worse than they were to begin with. Do you have any family or friends that you can connect with? That can help you get up and encourage you to slowly get off of your medication, and start an exercise program?
What do you think about praying? I always pray when I am indeed of help. Every step of the way! It doesn't matter how often I pray or not. The LORD is ALWAYS there 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, 365/366 days, 12 months a year, every single year... He is there continuously; he has never left and never will leave! He is always here for you and me and everyone who will accept HIM! All we have to do is ask. Our circumstances may not always leave, but He will give us direction, and peace of how-to best deal with getting through the storms of life. He will open up the windows and direct us onto different avenues of life. Showing and teaching us along the way. He wants to teach us about and share His love that He wants the best for us! We just need to be still and let Him do His work in healing our hearts, minds and souls...
Do you think that you can put your trust in Him today? Here are the steps to finding peace and healing in life;
The Bible says ...
"We have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ." - Romans 5:1
"For God so loved the world that He gave his one and only Son, that whosoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal." - John 3:16
" I have come that they (you/me) may have life and they (you/me) have it more abundantly." - John 10:10
The Problem Is That: Our sin separates us
The Bible Says...
"For all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God." - Romans 3:23
"For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord." - Romans 6:23
Our Attempt to Reach God : People have tried many of ways to bridge the gap between them and God...
The Bible says...
" There is a way that seems right to man, but in the end it leads to death." Proverbs 14:12
" But your iniquities have separated you from your God; your sins have hidden his face from you, so that he will not hear." - Isaiah 59:2
God's Bridge: The Cross
The Bible says...
"For there is one God and one mediator between God and men (women), the man Jesus Christ." - 1Timothy. 2:5
"For Christ died for sins one and for all, the righteous for the unrighteous, to bring you to God." - 1 Peter 3:18
" But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us." - Romans 5:8
Our Response: Receive Christ
The Bible says...
" Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him, and he with me." Revelation 3:20
" Yet to all who receive him, to those who believe in his name, he gave the right to become the children of God." John 1:2
" That if you confess with your mouth, 'Jesus is Lord', and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved." - Romans 10:9
Will you receive Jesus Christ right now?
1. Admit that your need. ( I am a sinner.)
2. Be willing to turn from your sins. (repent).
3. Believe that Jesus Christ died for you on the cross and rose from the grave.
4. Through prayer, invite Jesus Christ to come in and control your life through the Holy Spirit. (Receive Him as Lord and Savior.)
How To Pray:
Dear Lord Jesus,
I know that I am a sinner, and I ask for your forgiveness. I believe You died for my sins and rose form the dead. I turn from my sins and invite You to come into my heart and life. I want to trust and follow You as my Lord and Savior.
In Your Name, Amen.
Now go and tell someone that you know that can lift you up and encourage and keep praying for you!
God bless you all!
Thank you I have noond here. Yes the meds are a big problem. I wish I never took them in ghe first place because it hsscbeen a battle this whole year my whole appearance has changed I look really bad. I am praying i pray and ask for his forgiveness and I am praying for a miracle to heal me I cang move from my bed I get dizzy nausea then i look at myself and wznt to collapse I won't even have a shower it has been a day in bed 2 days i feel like I cznt make it through. It is becoming beyond suffering I can't handle this.
Good morning,
Just a thought, how much water are you drinking on a daily basis? If you are drinking more beverages than water, you are depleting yourself of hydration. Your body is being dehydrated. You should be drinking at the least 32 ounces of water every day! Are you eating 3 nutritious meals every day? Snacks, sugary and salty food also play with the mind and how you feel. Do you press forward daily to get up and walk a few steps around the house?
God does provide all kinds of miracles everyday around the world of all sorts! A lot of these miracles we don't even notice because we're not paying attention.
And another thing about praying for God to provide us with miracles is that we need to participate and work at pressing on, moving forward. Doing what we can to help ourselves, and asking God to help us with what we are not able to do. This way we are learning how to care for ourselves and others as God is quietly helping us.
I am not sure of where you stand with knowing the Bible Stories from the Word Of God. But, do you know of the story of the 'Lame Man Who Laid By The Pool Of Water?"
There was a man who laid by this pool of water for thirty-eight years, trying to inch by inch towards the pool of water. (His legs did not work and whenever he tried walking with his hands the other sickly people would run over him to get to the water) ... Jesus was in town with his disciples for a religious gathering.
Jesus, knew of this man and went to him specifically, He asked this man "do you want to be healed?" He told Jesus, I have no one to put me in the pool ... Jesus said to him "Get up! Pick up your bed and walk." At once the man was healed and he picked up his bed and walked.
We need to do our part to the best that we can, even when it means working through our aches/ and pains, do what we can, and talk to God and leave what you are unable to o do up to Him.
I will be praying for you! God bless you!
I understand being almost bed ridden from my mental health for long periods. Sounds like your "inner critic" is just hammering you non stop with negative thoughts. It's exhausting and drains away any energy and motivation. Have you been evaluated for a personality disorder. The reason I ask is that they can be the underlying cause of any subsequent issues such as depression and anxiety. Personality disorders don't really respond well to medication if the distorted thinking is really ingrained. It's been an on going struggle with my personality disorder. But knowing you have one and coming to accept that the way you think is not your fault gives one a good foundation for focus in therapy. I'm not saying you have a personality disorder but it may be something to look into. Hang in there. Don't worry about feelings of hopelessness. Let your support system and those you reach out to hold on to that hope for you as you work through recovery.
I have Borderline Personslity Disorder and the meds really hurt me and it seems ghat the doctors and hospitals have hurt me more than help me. I am really not ok. Thank you for the kind words.
I, really, can't add much to these Beautiful people on here who want to be there for you & help & Know that you are not alone. I am much older than most of you on this post except for one Man on here that is close to my age! At any rate, I do know the feeling of being SO exhausted mentally & physically. The last three years have been Extremely stressful as I was taking care of my Sig. Other for a little over two years. He passed away a little over a year ago. Some days, I don't know how I can navigate this life without him. Loss, be it the death of someone So close, or a breakup from divorce, or because you were depressed, or not functional is a LOSS. That takes time to process so give yourself some slack --easy for me to say as I do struggle everyday with the loss of MY Person! Also, the Pandemic & both of us getting Covid took it's toll, Lost our house, too, and I was homeless & had to stay with relatives that didn't really want me there, and I didn't want to be there. Also, now I look in the mirror & feel like I want to hide as I have aged SO terribly! Anyway, nuff about me --what helps --When the mind says, "I can't go on," pinch hit with the muscles. Meaning, just Move your muscles to get out of bed, the mind might say, you can't, but just move your legs, force the movement. Little by little, do once dish at a time as one person suggested, just putting your foot on the floor one day, the next day, put two feet on the floor, the next day, put one toe in the shower, or take a "sponge bath!" Well, it's heartwarming for me & you & the rest of us that We are All rooting for you & YOU WILL BE OKAY. Hugs & Prayers
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