Bad feelings

[BlueAgave]

I have been doing fairly well for the past month and then all the sudden I start waking up in the mornings with that anxious feeling. I was able to get through it for about a week, just got up and tried to ignore it. Unfortunately, this past weekend the anxious feelings were stronger in the mornings and my day was filled with anxiety. I try to think of triggers, which there are several, but in the past I was able to deal with and move on. I start having that dreaded thought process of why am I here, what is the point of it all. I have a very supportive family and I wish I could be more present with them instead of stuck in my own head all the time. I try breathing, I've tried meditation, but can't shake these anxious feelings. Just needed to share this and maybe someone can relate. Thanks for listening.

[Notsosadanymore]

I am sorry you are going through this. I struggle with being present due to overwhelming depression and negative thinking. I just do the best I can do for my kids and wife each and everyday. Some days are obviously going to be better than others, so on the better days I try to make them special to try and make up for my not present moments. Best of luck to you and I hope things improve for you!

[BlueAgave in reply to Notsosadanymore]

Thank you. I'm trying. I feel like I'm always apologizing for being a disappointment. Need to get that out of my head!

[Notsosadanymore in reply to BlueAgave]

Yeah, throw that negativity in the trash and replace it with some positive energy!

[Positiveannie in reply to Notsosadanymore]

hi yes that's a brilliant idea, but if it's constant then a trip to the GP is advised 👍

[BlueAgave in reply to Positiveannie]

I'm in therapy, see a psychiatrist and am on plenty of medications. It's my mind. I've got to keep telling myself I will be okay.

[MaggieSylvie in reply to BlueAgave]

Is another person making you feel like this, or another person in the past?

[BlueAgave in reply to MaggieSylvie]

No, no one is making me feel that way, it's my own interpretation. My family is constantly telling me to stop apologizing.

[MaggieSylvie in reply to BlueAgave]

Aha! So you just need to say something other than "sorry". I say to people in shops who say sorry that everyone has to take up space and no-one should need to apologise for it.

[BlueAgave in reply to MaggieSylvie]

So true! My therapist says I need to say "thank you for your understanding".

[MaggieSylvie in reply to BlueAgave]

Would you really say that?

[Michael8072]

Hi BlueAgave

I hear ya on the waking up with the anxiety. I wake up with it every morning for the most part. When it’s at its worst I go outside and just go for a very long walk and by the time I get home it seems to be a bit better. Meditation doesn’t really work for me either. Guided meditations work better for me having someone talk and I just listen to their voice. I also do rest yoga nidra for sleep on the nights where my thoughts just won’t let me sleep. Someone just talking you through as well. Idk if you have time in the morning to just get outside and move around.

I hope you find something that helps you with your anxiety in the morning.

[BlueAgave in reply to Michael8072]

Thank you for your response. I do try to walk, but sometimes get paralyzed and can't get very far. It does help though. Thanks again!

[Thankfulforhelp22]

I also sometimes have anxiety that seems to come out of nowhere. The anxiety rollercoaster is not a fun ride. Sometimes I can figure out the source and sometimes I can't. I do the best I can to cope and not let negativity linger. I hope you will feel better soon.

[BlueAgave in reply to Thankfulforhelp22]

Thank you. Yes this roller-coaster is terrible!

[Agora1]

Hi BlueAgave, as much as Meditation and Breathing are good tools to have on hand,

unfortunately it is not an overnight process. It takes time to retrain the brain. Afterall

we have fallen into a habit of fearing the mornings before we even go to sleep at night.

Listening to meditation upon awakening, midafternoon and before sleep is a way to have

the subconscious mind grasp on to the positive words it's hearing. The longer we follow

this habit, the more trained we will be with our response. The idea is for us to get to the

point of responding at the second we feel that bad sensation in the pit of our stomach.

It's very difficult when you are in the throws of a panic/anxiety attack to conquer it. xx

[BlueAgave in reply to Agora1]

Thank you for your support. I have to do these things that I don't always think I need. I can't change unless I put in the work all the time, not just when I really need it. It's truly a lifestyle change. I appreciate you!

[CL3V3R-G1RL]

This is actually pretty common among anxiety suffers. We start doing better and feeling good. But somewhere in the back of our mind we dread about these feelings returning. Sure enough they do. We feel terrible like we did something wrong.

We try so hard to ignore anxiety. But like trying to keep a beach ball underwater, no matter how hard we try, it'll just pop up.

But you know what, it's okay. Yeah it sucks that these feelings have come around again. However you know now that these feelings can also go away. You know because you experienced it. So there's a positive. Just gotta find a way to adjust and work on coping mechanisms.

Like before you go to bed, write out any thoughts or questions you have thought about throughout the day. Just pour that on to the page so they are out of your head. That may also help you sleep better.

Practicing breathing exercises can help. At least in getting you back to being present.

Meditation does take a lot of practice. It's not a 1 and done thing. Gotta work on it. But I understand meditation isn't for everyone. So breathing exercises are another option.

Also exercise can help. It doesn't have to be cross fit. Perhaps a nice walk around the block. I like walking personally.

And if you have time check out Dare: A New Way to End Anxiety and Stop Panic Attacks by Barry McDonagh. That has really helped me.

Wishing you healing and peace 🫂❤️

[BlueAgave in reply to CL3V3R-G1RL]

Thank you for your reply. I do know I can feel better again, but in this moment it feels impossible. Thank you for your suggestions, I will definitely give them a better try. And I will check out the book you suggested. Thank you again!

[fictionlover]

Hi have you tried writing down how you feel sometimes writing can help you

[BlueAgave in reply to fictionlover]

This was one thing I started to do last year but never could get into it. But funny you mentioned it, last night I ordered a prompted CBT journal for anxiety. I think having questions to answer will help me along with the journaling. Thank you!

[swag10]

I can relate to that feeling of 'why am I here' which was brought out when I started researching in myHeritage. The best remedy was to journal all the things you've accomplished in your past.

[BlueAgave in reply to swag10]

That is a good idea because right now I feel I have no purpose even though deep down I know we all have a purpose in this life. I know it stems from feeling like I'm the only one who has bad feelings and terrible anxiety, which I know I'm not. That's why I'm here and so grateful for all of you! Thank you!