Almost losing it

[Sunrisetabby]

Argh. I had been doing so much better, but I almost totally lost it last night and it was so debilitatingly frustrating. I have become somewhat if a recluse but had plans last night to to meet up with friends but had to pick up and drop my kids off at home first. All I did was walk inside grab some food and then walk back out to my car and my wallet and keys were gone. Thankfully, I was able to find them after an hour, but during that time I returned to a very dark place that I had avoided for weeks. It was so scary to realize how tenuous my progress has been and I don't know what to do. I am organizationally challenged and used to often lose things but I hadn't lost anything in awhile. But last night my keys and wallet simply dissaprared and my sanity was lost. I looked everywhere - three times - including digging outside in the snow but they were nowhere to be found. @#$@. I automatically put my keys in the same drawer when I come home and it had turned out that I accidentally put them in the drawer below my usual drawer. Such a small brain hiccup with some brutal repercussions and so scary to learn how frail my mental state actually is still at the moment. I'm just ranting and not really saying athibg but wanted to send love and best wishes for sustainable progress to everyone. Getting better is not linear and there are setbacks but we have to keep trying and trying. I'm still trying but it is really hard, especially this morning.

[Nothing_but_books]

I have that problem of losing things too. I fixed losing one thing permanently, after I lost my keys inside my car! A couple hours lost waiting for a locksmith to come and let me in and I learned my lesson. My keys are now on a clip that is always attached to my purse. Clips come to attach to belt loops too. They're at the hardware store.

I love this, it's so true:

"Wishes for sustainable progress." Yes!

"Getting better is not linear and there are setbacks...

but we have to keep trying and trying."

I can use these reminders over and over. When things go wrong, I panic and doubt everything.

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I didn’t read your post as ranting at all. Intelligent recognition of a problem, yes frustration, but finishing off with a determination to solve said problem.

Walking that tightrope is what makes our challenges in life way more than most. I try to think of people worse off than me. Sometimes it helps. Sometimes I just have to go through it.

Your resolve to continue your good progress is inspirational

[mizzou7016]

Are you sure that I didn't write this post....I struggle with this all the time....Keys go on a hook by the entry/exit door every time I come in.....I usually try and put wallet and work id in a sterling silver bowl also right by the entry/exit door...that way all of the essential items I need each day are in 1 generalized location....if wallet and id don't go in bowl they stay in uniform pocket so all i have to do the next day is transfer everything from pocket to pocket. I am usually really frustrated if I can't find something because I know I had it a couple of hours ago and struggle to remember where I put it since it's not in the "normal" spot.....gonna close this by saying that the only time we truly fail is when we completely quit trying after a setback......the fight is worth it....keep up the fight

[catsrock]

Just wanted to send you some hugs.