Trying to heal

[Lookingforhope20100]

I don't really know how to title this post, but it's going to be a lot of woe is me, but don't worry there is a happy ending to my post today. let's begin with: I'm trying my best to change and have more self-worth, and it's been hard. My grandma calls me worthless all the time, and I can't help but think that the world would be better off without me. I also have sevral people call me fat and ugly that i suffer from an eating disord as it is being called those names makes it worse. I try to act strong but thats all it is an act because in truth i'm scared I won't have the stragth to get back up. I have my daughter though and every day my tiny 3 yr old human looks up at me and says "you're a great mommy and you try your best" it warms my heart and gives my stranth I'm finally on decent meds that make me feel normal and gives me energy. I also have a normal wake/sleep schedule. with all that. it makes life just a tad easier to live, so keep your head up and find joy in the little things. thanks for reading

[BlueAgave]

Wow, sounds like you have a lot of courage and strength right now! You're doing a great job. Keep up the good work and just focus on the words of your tiny human that sounds like such a sweetheart! You are so right, we all need to find joy in the little things in our lives. Best wishes to you.

[Spiritanimal]

I’m glad that you are experiencing some light at the end of the tunnel! I love that your daughter gives you hope and a reason to keep fighting. My daughter has always and will always be my #1 reason to live. Your post is an inspiration to me to also fighting. Thank you 💕

[LoveforAll41]

Hullo hope, I am sorry that you are struggling with self worth. I am glad that your daughter gives you hope. I would opine that the best thing she can see is you working toward feeling okay to great and loving yourself. It is hard to have it sink in that we have worth not matter what we do or don't do, but it is true. It rings true in my soul even if I don't feel it all of the time.

I try to be a good example for my kids on having emotions and managing what you do with them... but I often feel they would be better off with a better provider 😥. Then I have to sit in it for a bit and try to feel the worth.

I wish you peace, hope, and strength. ☮️

[Starrlight]

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