Today, started fine, but as it went on i just started to feel 'off' and put it down to anxiety. But i can't seem to shake it. It's like some emotion or something is niggling at the back of my mind and I'm trying to let it in but can't. So i haven't a clue what or why it is that im feeling this way. Anyone relate to this 'feeling'?
Maybe tomorrow will be better!
I can relate. I’m feeling it now. I have my normal same ol worries that I can pin down but there’s a feeling today that I can’t shake where I think something will bubble up but hasn’t and I’m left wondering why I am so unsettled.
I hope you feel better soon, Shanm2.
It's the hypervigilence and catastrophising....always waiting for "the other shoe to drop".....it's a defense mechanism....how we protect ourselves....
Thank you for your reply Starrlight, it made me feel less alone in feeling this feeling and i hope you to, have a better day today 💕
me too, because of you I also feel less alone. Do you tend to make things in your life that seem hard, bigger than they actually turn out to be? I’m working on this. As long as we know we are doing our best while listening to our body and soul, I think we’re doing pretty damn good.
I'm glad you feel less alone. And Catastrophising, Mind-reading and judgements all come to mind but yes, jumping to the wrost case scenario, when in actuality the situation isn't as bad as it seems is something i do....but being aware of all of the above, makes it easier to work through to the point of change.
But as you said, we all just doing our best, whilst listening to our body and soul.... And i also this we are doing pretty damn amazing!
Go you! And go me! 😅
I go through the same thing. Sometimes I think of all the things that I am doing or have been concerned about and they are all fine but still I feel anxious, and I cannot pinpoint the cause of the anxiety. I would agree with mizzou7016 that we are often fortunetelling, and there is a tendency for people to scan for things to worry about.
I find that combination of exercise, CBT, meditation, and an attempt to be mindful often help the problem. But it is difficult and not uncommon.
Oh yeah fortune telling I agree… I tend to expect that things will go worse than they actually end up being. Sounds like you are doing great things to take care of yourself, keep it up!
I'm sorry you go through the same thing. As for fortunetelling, i would agree, but i also would go far to say, adding it with anxiety and scanning for the worries would be a defensive mechanism for protective purposes but it makes it all the more difficult.
Managing anxiety on the daily can be difficult, because one day, you think its manageable and the next its unbearable.
I'm currently going through some CBT and have found it helpful. I'm glad its helps you along with the meditation and of course exercise.
Apologies for the long paragraph but you really got me thinking from your reply! 😅
Sometimes it's blatantly obvious and other times it's like what you feel today. You just can't put your finger on it.
Let's hope tomorrow os a better day for you
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I definitely can relate...I fight that all the time..it's the hypervigilence and catastrophising coming out in me...unfortunately my mind is always running on the bad side
Hello mizzou! I'm sorry you can relate but i do like your view on this and sadly my mind often runs to the bad side. But that doesn't always mean it has to stay on the bad side (easier said then done)
Anyway thank you for you replies 
again I say that my environment has a lot to do with it.....I try very hard to be a good example and see good in people....but I'm also a realist and understand that not everyone has good intentions...just keep doing you....and people will eventually show you their true colors...
For me it's more the environment...
I work in a maximum security state level prison. Have for 26 years. Have been assaulted. A victim of a riot....ptsd and anxiety
I can't imagine what strain that must be on your mental health and general wellbeing. I hope you are doing as okay as you can! Stay strong 💕
Because that is what I mean when I say my environment. I sense a troll
Yes mizzou she is the troll!
Mizzou
This is our resident troll. Sad that a banned member comes back and plays games with those of us that are working on healing. She should spend her time on her own healing.
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I'm very confused as to whats happened, I haven't encountered trolling on here before. I hope they didn't majorly upset anyone as it was my post. Hope you guys are all okay
Nothing to do with you Shanm2 so don't fret please. We have a troll who has been banned countless times but keeps returning to stir things up.
Her name was originally Luna_Child. But don't worry we have some good troll hunters on the site
Again, thank you for making me aware but aslo reminding me not to fret!
As hypercat54 this has nothing to do with you.
This particular troll is going on almost a year of doing this stuff here. Banned means banned and HU decides this for the well being of the community.
This one troll has been doing this for almost a year 🙄. She can be very nice and try and fit in or she can snap and be very nasty.
Just beware of new people popping into your pm wanting to be best friends. It's discouraged for safety reasons
Your post is great
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Thank you again, i haven't been on here for some time, but i appreciate you making me aware.
well thank goodness you didnt think that about me.....hehehe...
lol.... key is new people
I know....just had to throw my .02 worth....actually in good spirits today..even after what happened at work yesterday
I know 🐢
I don't know how you do what you do. I'm glad you are in good spirits
I would like to say you get used to it.....but that's never really the case....you become numb to it....
That's it, if you don't harden and numb you won't last
but sometimes I don't like being hardened...goes against every part of my character
It's only in that one part of your life and it's for protection. I'm sure you are not always hardened at work either
Kind of like a Dr that has the job of delivering bad news. They have to stay strong in certain instances and it doesn't mean when the walk out that door they don't say to themselves .. wow that was tough
Similar to what Dolphin14 said above, given your profession, being 'hardened' would surely be as a form protection. Like emotionally distance to be able to do jobs - such as a police officer - but the fact you don't like being so and goes against your character says to me that you arent an 'hardened' person by nature...finding a balance in who you are at work and who you are in your personal life might be helpful. Stay strong 💜
That's just it......in the last 2 years my work/life balance has gone out the window....working 12 hour days...need to get back in to doing my fluid art.....struggling with a lot of things......
As Dolphin and Hypercat have said, it was in no way your fault Shanm2. You're not responsible for the behaviour of others, so please be reassured . 🤗
She was questioning me about a response I made to your post...she didn't like my explanation
Well you obviously don't know me because that has been a topic of my discussions for a long time
luna why are you here doing this? Don't you have something better to do with your time.
gajh
Thank you for being on top of things and pointing her out.
It takes a village
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You are welcome. I am glad I was here at the time. I only wish that there was someone here at the time that could have deleted her immediately. It is so hard to sit by and watch when she is hurting people. It is very disturbing.
It is hard but you did the best thing we can do. You knew it was her and you made sure others understood what was happening. That's the important thing. Then members don't get upset by the cruelty.
As a community we stand by each other ❤️
for the record....as far as i am concerned she didnt hurt me at all....just chalked it up to another individual that doesn't understand the ptsd/anxiety aspect of public service....I've had to explain it to a lot of people....only thing that annoyed me is when I gave her an explanation of why my environment causes my issues.....that's always frustrating to me
I am so glad to hear that she didn't hurt you at all. She may have been hurting some people in other posts she was replying in. I am glad that she was banned.
I'm just like everyone else and struggling to grasp the concept of why someone would be like that...I've also learned that I'm not everyone's cup of tea...I am their shot of whiskey however......hope you are well
It had absolutely nothing to do with you at all. I am doing well thank you. I hope you are having a good day today. We are having a bad storm right now in the North East.
So far so good today.....hoping not to have any repeat issues today like we had yesterday...you're probably getting the aftermath of what we had here in the midwest the last couple of days....today right now the temperature is 1 above and the feels like is -17.....my old body hates it
That's rich coming from you Luna....
Trolls like you do nothing else but spew hate - a keyboard warrior.... Hypocrisy rules ok.
I don't know what was said, what happened or who 'luna' is. But thank you for saying something
I've had that happen to me too and I can never figure out what it is. It is such an uncomfortable feeling and only goes away if I sleep. BUT then I have bad dreams.
It is an uncomfortable feeling and i often get bad dream if it unresolved. I hope though that this new year will ve better for you
I didn't know that person was a troll so I have corresponded with her. Maybe she has major mental problems.
Anyone who is a troll does have major mental problems. But she chooses to keep returning despite being banned from HU multiple times. You can't behave like that on here regardless of your issues. The majority have to be the consideration.
She upset a lot of people while here both on the main board and in pm too with her abuse. She also loves being very nice to you in pm and make you think she is your new best friend. That is until she ghosts and trolls you too leaving many upset.
It's sad really. Hopefully she gets the help she needs but thankfully we are aware about her and what she is like. Sounds like you may have experience her abuse...i hope not but thank you for your reply
Thank you for the warning
Far away Lover
Update : I woke up at 7pm, mom's coming from work at 8pm. Sis whispered something to dad about her college. Ex is going to his homecountry
Something is wrong with me
She is mad at me again.
Depression is beating me
