I navigated another day It started out feeling and looking very difficult, with a mediation I did not feel and actually was not well prepared for. But I handled it, and did the 2-3 key things I most needed to today, and I dare say I felt fairly good about it.These small victories in contrast to recent days, mired in suicidal thoughts, constitute a large victory and something to build on and draw confidence from. I am large and contain multitudes still.
As Edmund Hillary said to the mountain, "You're as big as you're ever going to get but I'm still growing."