... are everyone in this world dishonest, not trustable, unloyal, traitors, liars, cheaters...? I am tired of searching 'my crowd' while all I receive is betrayal. I am really tired, struggling under my duties and responsibilities, trying to raise my children and give them the best I can...while small everyday details are falling apart, besides the disastrous big and important sides of my life.
When I read articles, quotes, books, and listen to courses... they teach important and honest life values, but why don't I find those people who are carrying those same values? I keep improving myself but instead of finding myself amongst better people, I keep becoming stranger and more tired by time.
I still believe that if the world is pushing you on your knees, you should hold on, stand up as many times as you fall, and keep going while not allowing your own heart and soul to become dark and bitter. I still believe that there are many good and honest people...somewhere... And I thought that if I improve, somehow they reach me, or I reach them, we find each other when the time is right when I have improved enough... but I am not so sure about it anymore...