All my memories have turned blue

[Amokaka]

You know how in the movie "Inside Out" where Sadness was wandering around the memory bank touching all the memories, and she turned them all from happy memories into sad memories? I feel like that's happened to me in real life. It seems like any time I think about anything in the past, it makes me so terribly sad.

This afternoon I was shopping at HomeGoods, and I saw something that reminded me of some shopping I'd done there right before the pandemic, and I was flooded with thoughts about how hopeful and stress-free my life had seemed back then, and how much worse everything has gotten in the years since. A few days ago I was out for a walk, and I walked past a restaurant where I'd eaten with my parents once, and it made me think about how they'll probably never come to visit me again once they move away for good. And the other day I tried to do a "mental vacation" meditation, where you visualize a place where you felt calm and happy and safe - I chose an AirBnB in the country where we spent a weekend last April - and I couldn't even finish the meditation without breaking down sobbing.

Has this happened to anyone else? How do I get my joyful memories back?

[Ellamaye]

That is so sad I'm sorry your going through this x I know the movie x it is like maybe your mind has taken a bad turn doesn't mean it can't turn back around though x

[TailWags]

Happens to me a lot. I as trying to figure it out too. Like mourning the past and the good old days. I miss them so much. I came across the term nostalgic. I had always thought it just meant regular remembering the past. But then i think i saw a definition that said it included being sad and missing the past. Even if it does, i wondered if it included feeling as miserable as i do when i recall happier, less stressful times. Anyhow, we cant be the only ones as someone thought to put it in a movie. So i guess it must be a thing.

[LadyZen]

Sounds like something is going that you need to process and talk through.

[LoveforAll41]

Do you feel like there are not going to be the same opportunities for making memories in the future? I think that I am sad about the past if I don't see more good memories coming. I guess more sad than is reasonable, feeling sad or mourning that the past is gone shows us that we value it and maybe we can prioritize making memories like that. Just thinking about when I look bad with depressed sadness or nostalgia/sad/happiness it happened 🤔☮️