At this time of year its good to reflect on whats gone by, good, bad and indifferent, and i look back all those years when my wandering started, I made some friends along the way ,shaking hands to say its good to know you, but some didn't stay and some never made it, and some have brought me to the brink of despair because of misplaced trust,, differences and misunderstandings sometimes arise, but it should never ruin anything that matters, but it often does. I look at life like a tightrope, we can falter when crossing a ravine, but with diligence we can get to the other side, it may be a perilous journey, but it is a journey we must all take when faced with insurmountable odds. If i could go back, i would go back 20 years when David was entering his most eventful phase ,and yet it was snatched away from him, leaving me like a piece of Flotsam drifting at high tide. I dont know how I've made it thus far, but its taken its toll, both mentally and physically, and i know i'm not the person i was, its changed me.
I have a few friends in a similar situation and they concur, and until it happens to you no one has any idea of the unrelenting anguish one goes through. It is an aloneness which encompasses every single day, you can be in a crowd but feel totally on your own, such is the price of grief. Its now been 4 long years, dealing with things i never thought i would have to ,but here i am doing the very best i can on the far side.
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for me it is feeling alone....even though I am not alone......as the legendary Icon Robin Williams said.....loneliness is not the concept of actually being alone.....it is the concept of being around people that make you feel that way......right now I have a good core group of people....and don't feel alone....i appreciate you and all that you do for the chat.....thanks for being there
Thankyou...i to have a number of people around me, and for a brief time the world seems kinder, but its coming home to an empty house when the aloneness sets in.
Good morning Roddy best thing put TV on straight away it brings a bit of company in the house and come on here I'm tryner spend more time watching TV than here,I keep busy too D I Y as you know but sometimes force myself I like absorbing into good programmes I have regular ones I watch 💛🌟😻xxx
Hello my dear Roddy your posts are so heart felt deep and mindfull I love the way you write and express your inner most thoughts,I hope one day you'll write that your life has changed for the better I know it's been such a hard road for you and I've never lost a partner to death but I know from my mam's loss and grief and her life after my step dad died 19 years ago luckily she had me but now it's harder for us both as she is 84 as you know and more health problems winter can take its toll on the elderly myself since I reached 59 I've experienced more pain luckily it's on off but I really feel it when I'm doing jobs, and you have that big house and buiseness to maintain too not just your mental and physical health and your 2 dogs, but they help keep you going, Stippler on here did a post about those on there own coming on I said I'll be on off he's 8hours behind us I'll be posting a fraimed drawing he did of pixie I managed to get it printed off at library, but Hel be doing his own post I think, so if your alone come on here what are your plans 💛✨🌟💙😹🌈xxx
hello my dear Mandy, yes life is a struggle for many of us, and as the years roll be life seems to get harder, but at least i am still here. i will try to find Stippler's post. Actually I am helping with a Christmas lunch for 70 people on Christmas day, its for single people on their own, so i have been making gateau for those who dont like Christmas pudding.I guess you will be with mum and your sister, have a great day.xx
Thanks just me and mam but sister's day after box day with family a buffet and me and mam going out for bar meal boxing day if can get booked that's great your doing the gateux I don't like Xmas pud we have trifle or mince and lemon tarts or whatever we decide I'm going to get ginger cake with sticky top but I need a rest after my dinner I have a lot lol hope you get through the day ok and find some enjoyment in it soon be spring I cought this sunset tonight in park 😁🤗click to see full
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Meditate on the pink clouds and it's full moon boxi g day watch for my post please hope we see the moon together and say hi to our loved ones over🌈🌝xx
Hey Mandy, your mothers baking looks an absolute joy, absolute perfection.x
Yes her baking is lol she's 84 but it's the one thing she can enjoy doing easy she really loves it and we love eating it too 😁I'm bed now night night 🤗🌝full moon boxing night so uplifting to see it 😁
hey corgi_fan817.....i hear you and i feel pretty much the same ,my mind and thoughts are not in the now, they are in a far place, far removed from the life i have now, and like you i question my very being. This year, this Christmas, has reduced me to a feeble wreck, devoid of any feeling's. The joy i used to know is now a sad memory. I look forward the brighter days and i wish you very much the same, we will get through this bad patch, i wish you love.
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