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ladybyrd11 hours ago

My story is ongoing with MMD and Anxiety, it started in my childhood, I'm 61 now. The sexual abuse started around 5 and 6 yrs. It seem to stopped after I was 6, when I started to remember snap shots of the abuse. It was by a parent that was also a pastor. I can't express over the yrs. with words what that kind of damage has done, emotionally and spiritualy it's still ongoing. What I continue to struggle with is (the shame of me just being me). It has greatly effected my relationships with others and the choices I have made even good ones. I have been fortunate that my husband of 44 yrs., my son, and his family has stayed with me throughout theses struggles. So many don't have that. I don't think I would still be here if it wasn't for their support. I have done the list on getting better over the years, reading books, Counseling, Groups, medications, different therapies. They have help in the doing at the time, but I still struggling with, (the shame of me being me). Now I'm at a point in my life I've been their and done that.

Well, that's the short version of my lived experiences. There's a saying I hear often (all is good) but for myself all is not good I can not hide.

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I am very sorry for what you’ve experienced, it makes me very sad. it makes me happy though to hear that your husband and son are with you and have been a huge support for you. you’re a beautiful human being and wish you can free of feeling the shame that you feel. I hope you can find peace.

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I’m really sorry for the abuse that you suffered sexually and spiritually. I relate with that growing up in a Christian home with a narcissistic mother and experiencing sexual abuse while in that home. I understand shame. It’s so debilitating. I’m so sorry for all that you have had to endure. Thank you for sharing your story I know it helps me to know and feel like I’m not alone and that’s powerful for me, I think for all of us! would love to talk further anytime.

Abuse by relative - I remember too well but we carry on. Thank you for sharing, don't feel alone

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