i reached fot help from system in N.Y. and all Ive gotten for my trouble is physical harm, humiliation, toxic drugs and trauma. First a supported housing agency more interested in prtecting landlord than supporting me.Then a quack who gave me mdma and screwed me up by not monitoring me right.
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ill reply to continue . A social worker who insisted on sitting in with me during my first session with psych...total humiliation.
Staff at a respite center that triggered a bad flash back then assaulted me as i left a respite center.
A private hospital that charged 50k that was a total physical dump.
I am sooo f__king angry ....enraged.
The system just wanted to cover its own ass and destroyed what was left of my life. Supported housing for mentally ill people is a trap. You are only a source of income. Once your in you cant get out unless you die or make yourself homeless or they throw you out and make you homeless. Im just venting. My country is screwed up why should its mntl health system be any different.
I'm sorry things turned out that way. I can understand how angry you'd be. I know our mental health system is bad. I've called around and can't even get an appointment except for one place and they're not great. The free public agency in town is not taking new patients. Which I find it unbelievable. I know it's hard to do in your situation but try to think of some positive things you can do for yourself. Writing on here is one and is good self care. Be good to yourself. See if there are any small things to be grateful for like being able to see or walk or hear and focus on those few positive things. Journal about all the negative things on paper and get it all out. Call all the crisis hotlines you need to and talk about it. It seems like youre in crisis. And I've been wanting to try MDMA therapy, its not available here.
I try to do everthing you suggested. The mdma thing was under the table done out of despdtation.Wait till legal and can be done right.
My anxiety made worse by external situation. Im gonna try going to nature today.
I’m so sorry you experienced how broken the mental health care system currently is. I had a very traumatic experience last week. I reached out for help last week too! I got similar treatment. The sataff was horrible, the patients triggers me. It was the worst feeling to be locked up with staff that were incompetent & violated so many laws I felt I had to report than I did I’m waiting. I will never go back to any in- patient facilities.
I was extremely angry too! I live in the south eastern part of the US. I was told by a reliable source after Covid many treatment centers lost their funding. To me that explains why they were under staffed and overcrowded. Ii suppose they’re hiring anyone who applies for a job and accept anybody who is court ordered. It was a dangerous environment. I’m having flashbacks and an barely functioning. I hope you have a good trauma informed therapist and support team.
It’s a shame what happened to you. Let us know when things get better or not. I’m thinking about you.
Thank you. Ill stay in touch. I was in hospital back in 21, was a God awful dumb. They wouldnt let you go outside because of insurance liability.
Warning, this post may be triggering!
Please do stay in touch. Feel free to vent to me. I’ve heard about every excuse for confinement. How stupid, it’s probably a civil rights violation, but I’m no lawyer. I’ve only been 2 treatment centers that wouldn’t allow outside time. Both had no place to go except the parking lots. All the others let us go outside to picnic tables or walk around a trail.
I just checked out AMA the 27th of this month on the weekend It’s was so different from when I was there 14 years ago. My daughter had to recite laws on false imprisonment & contact an attorney, before they would discharge me. I am looking for a reputable medical facility that promotes healing.
I’m determined to find acceptable therapy long-term. I never received the right treatment for the original trauma. Just a few days or so in a facility that releases you if you aren’t a danger to yourself or others. I hope that wasn’t tonintense. We have each other now and many more supportive people here on this forum. Take advantage. Some are super supportive. Have a good evening.
Im not really responding to treatment. Im living isolated in bad conditions. No family support or friends anymore.No one wants to be around morous depressed person.
Add on anxiety and cptsd and ur in h_ll.
There are no good hospitals in NY. All the reviews are bad.
Sorry you ran into bad parts of the system. Do you have a plan B?
No plann d. Sorry no get back sooner.
No worries about response time. Any better then a week ago
No same. Im getting older and sicker. Less functional. I was better than this , system beat the hell out of me.
I have anxiety, depression, and cptsd and i find being in nature helps. Dont ruminate on the negative. Try to clear your mind, nourish your body, get ample exercise and plenty of rest and meditate and pray. This forum has plenty of support and if you can find anyone that offers therapy and social acitivties, it would help your mind take the edge off.
You have the same toxic mix of dx that I have. I try to take long walks in nature. Ive got to take long train rides. Park where I live are a mess. Treatment Im getting barely helps. I try to read alot. Mornings are the worst. I need a social life friends.
I need a social life as well. That would make it all go from bearable to possible enjoyable.
Its hard to do when u havent got the energy to do it. My illness has alienated everyone around me.
Its unfortunate that people turn their backs to people truly suffering while pursuing their own hedonistic meaningless puny existence
Ive been thrown away. I wish i wasnt here anymore.
that’s an awful feeling to live with lonepain. I’m sorry you’re isolated and struggling the way you are and having negative experiences reaching out for help. you and your well being really do matter. are you able to connect with a therapist? I understand that money and insurance can keep that from happening. Have you tried reaching out to 988 they will listen and talk to you and can give you some resources based on your circumstances. if you try them and don’t feel like anything helped keep on it and a different counselor might have better resources.
I dont sleep well here cant think. Called 988 they ask lot of questions dont offer help. I need new place to live. Only option homeless. That happens i have unpleasant end.
I’m sorry you’re not sleeping well that really compounds the problems. I understand about not feeling any help from 988. in my experience it really depends on the counselor that you are connected with it may be worth it to give it some more tries. being homeless shouldn’t have to be your only option.
I live with my kids and their mom in a biracial household that is loud and has alot of energy. It doesnt give me much room for quiet solitude, rest, reflection and rest but i take comfort in prayer and find calm at work. Poor sleep affects me and alot of people. We are truly living through harsh times. Im in NYC. Where are you located?
Im in my Bronx office right now. I've had anxiety and depression for about a decade and a half. It started in Vegas and when i moved to NYC in 2012 and was mostly ok but have been going downhill since 2017.
Things started going bad for me in 2018. My housing program made me think I mite loose housing support. Got depressed and anxious again.Now worse condition.
Things started going bad for me in 2018. My housing program made me think I mite loose housing support. Got depressed and anxious again.Now worse condition.
I had issues living with my mom, my dad, my sister, and with my kids mother. I feel like its my fault for not finding the meagerness to rise above the nonsense and block the noise abd protect my internal environment. At the end of the day, knowing i am in control and will pull through any challenge and my kids needing me keeps me going. Ive also been told by my therpist i was neglected as a child and have split personality disorder, as part of me wants to heal everyonr around me and part of me wants nothing to do with them. I have a bipolar mom and sister and my kids mom also has her trauma so sometimes i wish i could have my own space to process and feel what i have to feel on my own.
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