Hey all! I used to be active on this site, but since some things happened in my life last autumn (you can scroll back and read if you are curious) I just feel like my life has gotten increasingly worse.
Since October, I have lost:
1. My husband. Our divorce was finalized in February.
2. My home. We sold our home and I had nowhere to go so I moved 1,000 miles away to live with my parents.
3. My job. Because of the move, but now I am disabled mentally and cannot work.
4. Friends. My friends were "our" friends.
5. My will to go on, at times.
6. My community. I had lived in my town for 12 years and had friends, volunteered, knew many people and was respected.
I am living in a place that is very anti-LGBT, very remote and isolated small town. I am with my parents (grateful for that.) But I am so isolated and so alone... I hate it here, I hate what my life has become. Not sure what to do to make it better. I am broke, literally selling things for food and relying on my parents (SNAP benefits are on their way.)
Not sure what to do. I am not at the breaking point of falling into my suicidal ideation... but I am just stuck and fear that I will get to that point.