it’s been a while

[Cimmy]

well here I am again, today is a BAD BAD DAY, I am so anxious that it’s making me feel ill or am I ill which is which. I’m having such a bad day that I just want to run away and call an ambulance but for what????. My doctor keeps telling me it’s anxiety. Can anxiety make you feel really really ill??, I don’t know what to do anymore, just feel like chucking it all in. Sorry for the rant, can’t talk to my husband and my children have enough to worry about with their own lives. Please give me some coping strategies if anyone know any I would so appreciate it. Take care and thanks for being there for me

[mizzou7016]

First and foremost....JUST BREATHE!!! You are ok. Yes anxiety can and does sometimes make you feel physically ill. I fight it all the time. Just remember that sometimes just battling the day is a victory. Sometimes the accomplishment is just remembering that tomorrow is a new day with new opportunities

[Artistfriend]

Anxiety can make you believe just about anything, even though none of it could be true. A good first step is knowing that youre perfectly healthy and trusting that no matter what your anxiety says

Are you able to get help through therapy or medication?

[Turnipgirl]

Hello again!

Yes anxiety and stress can make you feel poorly and don't help matters!

Monday just gone I was just going along minding my business and the phone went and it was an officious and infuriating call about how the rent hadn't been paid and yes it had and I felt absolutely infuriated and angry as its like you are being accused of theft and it brought back memories of when myself and other tenants at my other place got accused of this and one girl had cried getting accused of things she hadn't done and I had held her hand and said how as long as in her heart she knows she's telling the truth then that's all that matters!

With myself it says in black and white on my bank statement yes the rent was paid last Friday by standing order as I deliberately sorted out one of those to be organised and not have to sort out a cheque or cash every month for rent like you used to do years ago!

I remember years ago when you got paid weekly in cash as most places did this but nowadays when someone says things are cash only I reckon its a tax fiddle as with cheques and direct pay they go through a bank account and there's a record that yes the rent was paid on time and those accusing make themselves look stupid and inefficient!

In regard to things going through the computer it's a fact of life that computers aren't perfect and they can be slow and break down can't they?

I reckon it was something stupid that their computers had broken down as it does happen so the payment hadn't updated last Friday so I got the call Monday just gone and felt infuriated!

At swimming yesterday I said to one of my friends there about the infuriating call and they said no I wasn't being silly and overreacting by having felt infuriated and how its not nice when you get accused of things you haven't done!

If I genuinely had forgotten to pay and had that call I wouldn't have been infuriated and we would have laughed about it and I would have paid and apologised!

Monday night I had felt ill and I feel that was brought on by the infuriating call rather than any physical ailment!

Years ago I was in my 20s and I worked in a canteen and by accident I had thrown someone's food out and they had said to me that they had wanted it so I apologised to them and replaced the food and apologised again as it was a genuine mistake and hopefully I was forgiven!

Thing is genuine mistakes happen.

What upsets people is when they are dealt with with a bad attitude!

I think they have found the payment now as I haven't received anymore infuriating calls!

It's not my fault that some people are stupid and slack is it?

[Cimmy in reply to Turnipgirl]

oh turnipgirl, I hope your ok, you sound as if your going through it and it certainly doesn’t help your anxiety. I wish you well and sending healing 🤗 hugs your way

[Turnipgirl in reply to Cimmy]

Yes I feel a lot better in myself thanks after having chance to talk things over and have people reassure me that no I wasn't silly and overreacting when I said I was infuriated over that phone call on Monday!

One friend said to me how having only just moved I am extra sensitive to things like that at present but i do feel time will help though.

We did laugh and joke about how this morning we hoped that there were no infuriating calls seeing the funny side of things and thankfully there weren't!

This afternoon it's been an afternoon out at a job interview where I gave it my best shot and went past some places I lost out on and feel thankful that I did now as I don't feel I would have been happy there.

Tomorrow afternoon it's swimming as usual and Friday we are going out to the Cardiff Bay Food festival which is something nice to look forward to.

Whilst I was waiting to be evicted what I did was every day put something in no matter how small like going to swimming as something to look forward to and I would leave the flat early as well as it was a horrible thing to have gone through being made to stay in a place where I was no longer welcome but I survived it though!

Nowadays having learned from all that each day I pop something in to look forward to say like going out for a drink or a walk somewhere.

This afternoon we enjoyed a nice walk from the interview place up to the city centre which helps to get rid of stress!

Also another lesson from all that is when there's times I feel got at and picked on like I did on Monday not to dismiss those feelings as silly and paranoid and think it through about what is it that upsets me and why is it the case that I feel picked on and got at?

Thing is we all have things that upset us and what's silly to one person isn't to another!

[Joemama55]

Hi, What are symptoms? I'm like you; do you ache all over, tired, cranky, balance off? My Dr said anxiety, but how do they know? Thanks....

[Cimmy in reply to Joemama55]

hi joemama55, my symptoms are horrendous they are nausea, achy all over, sweating, dry mouth, heart flutters, and the list goes on, just don’t feel well but how can anxiety make you feel so bad. Anyways sending healing hugs 🤗 your way. Take care

[Joemama55]

Thanks so much for writing back... I'm happy! i'M WONDERING IF MINE IS A LIFETIME OF NOT LIVING MY OWN LIFE.... JUST DOING WHAT EVERYONE ELSE WANTS, AND NOT WHAT i WANT. Theses symptoms are just so shocking; nobody is prepared or this. I also don't say what I think & just go along. Too exhausted to make changes now; too cowardly anyway. I go back & forth with smoking, which makes it way worse, but can't help it. You have this?

[Turnipgirl in reply to Joemama55]

More than likely that's what's behind it keeping others happy at your own expense and anger and resentment builds up and festers and turns nasty if it isn't dealt with like an untreated wound.

With myself what gets me upset is when I feel got at and picked on by others for silly and trivial things like on Monday when I felt got at over getting accused of supposedly not paying the rent and yes I did but it hadn't updated on their computer!

I have the records to say yes the rent was paid on time last Friday so that was rubbish but still I was upset and angry though!

Thing is computers are far from perfect and they crash and go slow!

[catsrock]

Have you tried tapping? It really helps me. thetappingsolution.com/

[designguy]

Anxiety can make you think and believe things that aren't true and blow things up out of proportion, it is lying to you and the best thing you can do is know they are lies and not believe or trust them. It can also cause body sensations that feel real but they aren't. Anxiety is your bodies builtin warning system malfunctioning and it is also a paradox, the more you struggle or fight with it the more it persists so the solution is to surrender and allow the feelings to flow through you and try not to feed it with more anxious thoughts. It takes time and commitment and isn't easy but it works. You might check out the DARE Anxiety book and youtube videos for how to deal with it, also some people find Tapping works for them, there is a lot of info on youtube about it.

[Weatherwoman]

There is No doubt that anxiety can make you ill, and it (anxiety) has caused me over the years, high blood pressure (now, worry about that which is making pressure worse), can cause whatever you have physically, or mentally worse. I am older, now, & when I was young, and even middle aged, there wasn't much help if you had an anxiety disorder & besides no one talked about it like they do now, and the Stigma was plain AWFUL, so you sucked it up & suffered in silence. That's what I did most of the time. When you are young, your body can take the "assult," but not getting help for so long can, & usually does affect you in all kinds of way. So, now I have a protracted "case," of Anxiety which I finally have some help for, but Wish that I could have gotten the proper help long ago --however, there wasn't any help to get, and people were either shunned, or wound up in a long term hospital --The times are A lot better now if you have a mental illness, but we still have a ways to go. I wonder if any older people on HU can relate

to not having the proper help for SO many years!

[pamb67]

Take some deep Breaths get outside into nature spend some time for urself and go for a nice walk and it's important u talk to your husband and share ur fears u will feel a relief

[xsor]

Cimmy you still on here lovely 🥰

[Cimmy in reply to xsor]

Hi sweetie yes I’m still here hun, just been observing rather than writing down all my woes. I’ve got so many of them lol. How are you doing. I’ve been battling blood clots on my lungs so it hadn’t been fun but things seem to be under control now (fingers crossed) hope you well and still fighting the fight x

[xsor in reply to Cimmy]

Ah cimmy good to hear from u I just been diagnosed with asthma and copd I’ve not been on for a while but just looking back saw your post u we’re struggling 3 months ago so thought I’d message u

Sending u love and hugs 🤗