In a weird place

[Belovedxinfinity]

I've been at my "new" job for almost 2 years & in some ways, it has been great! But this year has been particularly difficult. I took on extra work, essentially a 2nd full-time job at the same place in order to try to bring two groups together. It has been a lot of work & has bared much fruit but at least 1 person, has been opposed to it & now I'm not sure where I sit.

I have worked very hard to do what I feel I am called to my whole life, but time & time again, I seem to get shit on. I'm not going to try to play power games or anything b/c they never work- (for me at least) & I am trying to become detached, in a Christian-Buddist way, not react to other people's drama & negativity. I am finding though that my depression is getting worse.

The thing is, I don't even really want to continue to do this extra job b/c I quite literally work 16 it's hrs a day and it's killing me. So I'm not sure if my emotions result from a year of working way too much or b/c someone doesn't care for me.

I guess I'm feeling lost. Just when I thought I was finally having a major spiritual breakthrough.

[RupertBrown]

It sounds exhausting. That many hours for such a prolonged period would wear on anyone's mental health! I hope you are able to take days off here and there to recharge yourself.

[Belovedxinfinity in reply to RupertBrown]

Thank you, for now I can't really. I work 6-7 days/week. But in June once school is out, it will get better.

[Thankfulforhelp22]

I’m no expert but it sounds like maybe you took on too much and it’s wearing you down. It may be time for some self preservation and protection. Stepping away from the extra load may be a consideration.

Just my opinion.

Hope things get better.

[Artistfriend]

Feeling lost and having a spiritual breakthrough often go hand in hand, stay with it, it can take time to figure out whats right for us

[Belovedxinfinity]

Really!?!? Oh thank you for saying that!