Continued Trouble TRIGGER WARNING

[PeaceNeed]

I know i sound like broken record. Every morning i hate waking up. Neighbor upstairs has mental problems keeps me up. Neighborhood stinks. All this means si every day.

Isolated alone 63 and hopeless. I gave most of my stuff away and my cat cause i couldnt care for her anymore. Id like to start drinking to shorten my life so i dont have to face old age.

[Boston001]

I know this doesn't help. I've started smoking again hoping that my first heart attack or stroke takes me quickly. I can't afford to drink and it gives me acid reflux long before I get a buzz. Do you get outside? Walking on the beach or in the forest helps clear my head. I wish I lived closer to the city, finding a corner to drink coffee and watch people walk around the parks relaxes me. Have you tried white or brown noise to mask your neighbor's activities? works for me, I can't hear anything but the rain or ocean wave recordings. I use a big air filter 24/7 too

[PeaceNeed in reply to Boston001]

Thanks for response white noise yes. I didnt mention someone threatened me. I cant move and dont feel safe here , im not aging well. My 60s have been a waste.

[catsrock]

This sounds just awful and I'm sorry you are going through it. We are here to support you. I hope today is better.