Having a tough time

[Kearndawg]

I’ve struggled with depression all my life as a diagnosed severe depressive. Recently I got out of a relationship and I feel like my mind is just such a mess. She wants to maintain being my friend and I don’t know how much longer I can put up with it. Every part of me just wants her back or to prove to her I can be better. When we initially moved apart and came to our little agreement. Every part of me only wanted to get better to prove something to her. Now I realized I’m liking just getting better for myself but still I can’t fight this feeling of just longing for her. Coupled with my depression I’m just finding it hard to make it through a day let alone the whole week.

[Agora1]

Hi Kearndawg and Welcome..

I hear that you are lost and heartbroken however you must take care of You first.

If you really want to save this relationship, then you must separate the feelings in

wanting to get better first as well as struggling with your longing at the same time.

There isn't enough power in you to contend with both overwhelming emotions.

I wish you well. I hope you get what you want...One Step at a Time xx

[Dolphin14]

There is a grieving process you will go through due to losing your friend. It sounds to me like you are in the midst of that. This is all normal.

I do agree with your goal regarding moving forward. You need to work on yourself for you, not for someone else.

Wishing you the best

🐬