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Having a bit of a hard time

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I’m new here. I was diagnosed when I was 24 with chronic depression, generalized anxiety, social anxiety, adhd, and low self esteem. Lately I’ve been feeling extremely lonely lately and I don’t want to talk to my friends and family because I don’t like to admit when I’m in my depression. I feel like it worries them and I don’t like to burden people when I’m at my lows. I’ve been drinking too much again and I’m just having a really hard time. I want to not feel like this. Anyway I’m not so sure how this all works. Thanks for reading.

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Hey thank you for sharing :)! Expressing how you feel will only help so you did great. Do you feel like drinking can enhance these feelings of depression and anxiety for you?

I’m sorry about the loneliness you have been feeling. You are definitely not alone. Many of us feel this way and the pandemic has only made it worse.

You don’t have to tell anyone if you don’t feel the need to, but I’d encourage it because people who love you will get you the help you need and show you support. Support is so important for times like this. Please don’t try to isolate yourself unless you need to at the moment.

Do you take meds for ADHD?

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Thank you for your reply. It means a lot. I’m actually ugly crying at my desk at work right now.

I know drinking makes it worse but I have unfortunately used it as a cope so long I have a hard time stopping myself. Especially when I feel depressed. I had gotten better about using other methods but it’s a default.

I reached out to a friend last night just asking her to hangout this weekend because I don’t think I should be alone.

I don’t take meds. I did for a year and it made me manic and I didn’t like the way it made me feel and behave.

I just want to not feel this crappy. I also joined this so I could be honest about how I’m doing because I often lie and keep a lot to myself. I think it’s really starting to hurt me.

I need to go back to therapy but it’s so expensive and out of pocket and I have so many financial things I need to take care of.

Just not living the dream currently. I know it gets better and I’ll be alright. I usually am. Just in one of my episodes.

That’s the worst, trying to hold back tears also only makes it worse. But crying is nothing to be ashamed of, you’ve just been holding so much in. Continue to post and express yourself and you will be surprised how much you will learn about yourself and why you feel the way you do. Anxiety and depression, it stems from somewhere typically.

I understand, unfortunately, many people use drinking as a way to numb themselves. You don’t need it, you honestly never did. That’s the truth.

If you have free time, you can look into a free clinic in your area that has mental health services. I know life is not exactly where you want it to be and it’s hard... but the good news is, we are in this together.

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Hello, thank you for sharing I am also new to this site as well. I joined cause maybe there was someone like me who was going through the same thing, you have described how i feel as well. I feel better knowing im not alone.

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cassh22 in reply to bluepanda126

Yes we aren’t alone. I’m so grateful for this safe space for us to connect.

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Me too! It’s a wonderful support group

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Welcome to the group Cassh22.

I am diagnosed with the same things as well. I know how yiu feel. please do yourself a favor and cut down the drinking. it only makes things worse

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lovetodance2018

Thank you for reaching out and sharing. I am sorry you are struggling. The first thing is know when you are struggling you need help and not reaching out to your friends and family who care isn't the answer. You aren't a burden on them. They want to help you feel better again. You mention you were diagnosed at 24. How many years ago was that? Are you seeing a counselor for your depression or been on medication? You know drinking isn't the answer and only makes depression worse. I struggled with depression, anxiety, and low self-esteem (which is usually a result of the depression and anxiety). Please go see a doctor to see if you need medication and counseling. The combination is what helps with struggling. When chemicals in our brain are off we need medication to help them be balanced. But that is only half the battle, the next is learning to get our thoughts healthy and to become aware of who we are and what we need. This is done through therapy or working with a healthy life coach, which what in the end really helped me l earn to love myself, that I a special, that I matter, and that each one of us are unique and should not compare ourselves with others. God created us special but our thoughts take over and we forget to believe that. If you ever want to chat feel free to pm me. I can share about how I have moved forward from my depression and my past hurts, let go of them, and searched for ways to have healthy thoughts and healthy behavior. I will be praying for you. Hugs and God Bless

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teen_anxiety

you are not a burden if you share because if you do not share they will not know how they can help you. Sometimes doing nothing is harder. Also maybe you should try and find an addiction recovery group to help with your drinking. Welcome and thanks for sharing.

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lovetodance2018

How are you feeling this week? I have been praying for you. Hugs

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cassh22 in reply to lovetodance2018

Thanks for checking in. 😊 this week has been a bit better. I have my intake for getting a therapist on Wednesday which I’m nervous and excited about. I feel less in the dumps like I was when I first posted. I appreciate you so much. Thanks again for your support

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lovetodance2018 in reply to cassh22

Glad you are doing better. I will be praying for your therapy appointment. Just know we are here for you so reach out anytime. Hugs

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