Panic and hatred

[coolkitty1934]

so today is horrible..This morning all i ate was 1 small cinnamon roll so of course when i skip lunch and at 2 greasy cheese stuffed crust pizza slices i will feel sick.Now i dont like going out of my room a lot so mom said i have to be downstairs for at least 2 hours and i did...apprently it didnt count because i "didnt interact enough" when i felt sick i head to my room only for mom to yell at me to get back downstairs.I tried to tell her i feel sick but she didnt agree and i started getting anxious before i start dry heaving.You would think that would be enough to leave me alone but no they force me downstairs. being with everyone downstairs which on a good day makes me nervous didnt mix wll with me and it only got worse.I tried everything but she wont listen.says if she lets me upstairs now then i will keep making myself sick to have an excuse and that making me stay downstairs is "good for me in the long run". The only thing it is making me feel is that being downstairs is a punishment.It wont help me feel better about joining the family downstairs in fact it will only make me hate it more. Whenever i try and explain mom yells at me.just like everything else this is just me simply "over dramatic or acting" to get what i want.so yay for panic attacks and uncaring parents hahaha....I hate my life why cant they undertsand that i cant just simply calm down or feel better.

[Hb2003]

im so sorry that happened to you 😞 .