Just had to quit therapy and feeling kind of lost

[Oh_Wonder]

Hello, I just had to quit therapy because the therapist I was working with hadn't been truthful about a report they made, and clinical notes were not reflecting anything we spoke about, along with them noting that I answered questions in the negative even though I was never asked those questions. Things were going really well in therapy and I was learning a lot, but then the therapist made a report that could have caused my family a lot of damage, after which I looked more closely at my clinical progress notes and saw that there were a lot of things that were discussed (and important to me) left out, the notes were not reflective of how each session went, and the therapist noted that I'd denied feeling unsafe or suicidal in every progress report despite having never asked me. Due to all of this the trust was broken and I ultimately had to end my sessions. This is something that has greatly affected me since this has been the first therapist that I actually made progress with after trying with various counselors, therapists, and psychiatrists over the course of 15 years.

I now feel lost and kind of scared. I have really bad anxiety, my PTSD has been really bad lately (I'm constantly worried, every loud noise makes me jump, etc.)

I don't have much of a support system. My partner is very dismissive of what I have to say and how I feel (earlier he told me he was not here for me to use in order to work through things, because I was trying to communicate how I felt about quitting therapy). My children are all very young so I can't go anywhere.

I'm not sure where to go from here.

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From the perspective of providing emotional support, I encourage you to take 10-15 minutes to pray. When all is lost faith does help us continue to move forward. Seek help from a church, from this website or other trusted source. Don't give up. This is temporary. One day your children will be adults. Focus on what you DO have right now in the sense of gratitude. You got this!!

[Agora1]

Oh_Wonder, after 15 years of various therapists, counselors and psychiatrists as well

as this last therapist who you learned a lot from....I think you have enough of a basis of

information to continue on your own. I totally agree with you regarding having to quit

therapy because of the trust issues between you and the therapist. But you need not

feel lost. Give yourself time to get over the hurt and disappointment of her betraying

you.

You know what your issues have been over the years and now it's time to address them.

Medication and therapy only goes so far but they are not the "key" to success. We must

learn to stand on our own two feet and find ways to help ourselves. If we don't, we continue

to stay tied to a therapist's apron strings getting us nowhere.

You just took an important step today in coming on this support site. We all have our own

journeys that we share with others and learn from their experiences. Your partner as well

as including anyone else who hasn't struggled through the same issues are no help.

Sometimes belittling us just makes us go deeper into an emotional pain and helplessness.

We can help you help yourself. At least give it a try. You have nothing to lose at this time

and everything to gain. You are no longer alone new friend. xx

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This is a great site. I had a bad experience with a therapist I was seeing years ago that I’d rather not go into and yes, it’s deeply affected how I communicate with other social workers, I have a difficult time now opening up to any of them. Probably better for you to try to cultivate some friendships.

[Midori]

A therapist should conform to a code of ethics.If not, she could be in big trouble, especially as this sort of thing goes on your medical record.

I feel you need a lawyer and try to get the record straightened out; then dependent of what happens, she can be sued or reported to her Professional Standards Board.

Its unprofessional at best, Negligence at worst.

Cheers, Midori