Panic overload making me do things i regret

[Against_the_current]

Academic pressure. Make us study harder than ever. Got home for sis'bday and I paniced and wrote some things i regret, a email to a teacher that now sounds absurd, i wanted to be in her class, now i don't, i wanted to write a project with her, now i don't, i wanted to become her client, now i don't know. I paniced and messed everything.Also texted my friend and they left me on seen

[012703060610]

Ugh. Understand that feeling of regret of the moment. Tomorrow is a new day and hopefully you can find this professor and just talk it through. It is OK to change our mind. If you aren't able to get to them in person, A morning email with clear head should hopefully do the trick too!

[SoporRose in reply to 012703060610]

That seems like good advice. I know I've done just that sort of thing multiple times.

What does "they left me on seen" mean?

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

Just saw my messages and nothing

[Raggedy-Ann]

Hi, you should write your teacher again, apologize and explain about the pressure, and that it won't happen again. you may find yourself in her class after all.

[Against_the_current in reply to Raggedy-Ann]

I need to call her for sure, im just so ashamed to go to her class now

[SoporRose in reply to Against_the_current]

I know how you feel. I still do stuff just like that and don't know how to deal gracefully with the embarrassment. But I'm sure you are not the first student to send her such an e-mail and she probably isn't fazed by it?

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

I hope so. And I think she's aware im struggling because she offered me to try to have me as a client. Then i declined because i have two more therapists but i think i will call her when mom and sis aren't here (and when im not terrified of the phone) and tell her im not okay and that's why I wrote that and perhaps ask for help and therapy

[SoporRose in reply to Against_the_current]

Yes! That’s a well thought-out plan and just the right things to say in just the right way. She may turn out to be the therapist who can actually help you.

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

Thanks, i was really struggling with this desision

[SoporRose in reply to Against_the_current]

I'm really proud of the way you found the calm and mature response in all the chaos. I wouldn't have come up with anything so rational.

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

Thank you so much ❤️