Another Sleepless Night

[Sloth23]

When I was younger I would run until I could feel something…now I just lie in bed restless and paralyzed with fear. It’s hard for me to say I need help out loud. Just when I think I have my depression and anxiety under control. Something out of my control happens and puts me back in that paralyzed state.

[Starrlight]

I’m up too. Is there anything you need to take about?

[Sloth23 in reply to Starrlight]

My thoughts just won’t shut off for the night…I can’t stop thinking about all the what ifs…

[Starrlight in reply to Sloth23]

I hear you. I’m still up too. I went over a bunch of stuff and felt better but when I tried to sleep my mind would find something else to worry about. I think I’ll say ‘less importance’ to the thoughts as it has helped in the past.

[Starrlight]

I’m sorry you feel fear tonight again. Me too.

[LilyAnnepuppy]

Being paralyzed by depression and anxiety is the worst pain. All I could do during my breakdown was hold on to the bed and ask God to take me. Luckily my psychiatrist, therapist, support group, medication and meditation have got me on an even keel. My motivation still is low, but I’m able to enjoy my days. I wish the same for you.

love your name by the way.

[AnxiousMess23]

I'm sorry you're feeling this way. I have experienced it myself, although it doesn't always have to be "something" that kicks me back into feeling paralyzed and numb. I've been feeling off for days now and unable to kick the feeling. I woke up this morning hoping it would be different, but it's not.