Feeling Lost

[lolavee1]

Lately I just haven't been myself. Last year I finally left my marriage and began getting better and moving forward with my life, I was doing so great ended up finally getting my GED and I even enlisted in the navy. That was a bust, I ended up getting a medical separation because mentally I just couldn't do it. Now Im back home and Im living with my ex while we both get back to financially stable but im just not feeling myself anymore. I feel myself getting back into the dark. I come home from work and just go to my room and lay in bed, Im losing all will and desire to do things. I find myself just wanting to lay in the dark and quiet away from the world alone with my thoughts. I most recently became super attached to an old cabbage patch doll that I found at an antique store and I don't know why but its the only thing that brings me comfort at the moment . I have no one that understands how I feel and no one to talk to. Im just so lost.

[Raggedy-Ann]

hi lola, I give you great credit facing fear and having the courage to get divorced, to join the navy... you're obviously a strong woman. Don't let the darkness engulf you. this illness we have attacks our will to live. have you seen a doctor? gone to therapy?you're so young don't let the darkness eat up your young years. fight. stepping away from depression can be simple. go for a walk, it doesn't have to be far. it will help boost the good chemicals in your brain. you must be in good shape I am assuming since you joined the navy. think about places to walk that make you feel safe, walk some place you've been curious to see a park, museum. go before you go home because once you are home it's really hard to leave the bed. oh another thing you might try is going to a library(I love the scent of books) but the world of stories, information, self discovery, language.... or stop and have a cup of some indulgent that makes you feel warm and it is personal to you. I know it's really hard to do. find that primal growl deep inside you, fight for your life, your happiness. you and cabbage kid can console each other, remind you of a time you felt safe, happy, feel secretly supported. - Raggedy Ann

[Bella_lee]

Hi @lolavee1 I'm so sorry you're in this dark space now and my heart truly goes out to you. I want to encourage you not to give up and I believe that you have the strength deep on the inside of you to overcome this darkness. Remember how you were able to move forward before, how you got your GED and enlisted in the Navy. You can do it again!

I'm praying for you, that the near future will bring light and strength for you to be victorious and be able to move forward with your hopes and dreams for life.

Sending you much hugs ))