I'm really tired

[AliGreen]

I've just reached my 20s but I'm so tired, physically and mentally. I've had something traumatic happen to me and I've relapsed back into my severe depression. No one seems to understand but brush me off or lash out at me and I feel selfish because I can't put into words what's going on. I've been visually seeing myself doing something 'drastic' and am scared because the pictures gets more clear by each day. I'm tired of feeling, thinking, I want out of this body

[Agora1]

Hi AliGreen It sounds like you are still not out of the situation with your

mother. Things I'm sure within the last 3 years have just escalated making

you feel insecure and defeated.

In order to be happy, we cannot become what another persons wants us to

be. We are each individuals born with our own purpose in life. When we aren't

able to achieve our purpose, life can lose meaning for us. You are now 20y.o.

maybe not financially ready to go on your own but you need to start working on

your mental state of independence. This doesn't mean you don't have choices and

don't let anyone make you think you are dependent on them and them alone.

Have you seeked counseling/medication? It's important to break this cycle of

instability and hopelessness. You have been stuck in this cycle for too long. It's

time to break loose and find who AliGreen really is. Never give up your hopes

and dreams. I believe in you xx

[orangesmiths]

you are not alone in this. you've described exactly how I feel but cannot even put into words. you are doing the best you can with the cards that have been dealt to you. it is okay to rest. it is okay to need rest, no matter how long it takes. it is difficult to accept because I don't want to seem selfish to anyone but it is necessary. You're very brave for speaking about how you feel and I'm proud of you <3

[Darkhouse]

Have you considered therapy and/or medications? They both help a lot of peeps. Yes, it can take some trial and error to find the right meds or the right therapist, but you're worth it, and it can help pull you out of this despair you're feeling now. I know it seems dark now, but there is light. You are not alone in your feelings. They can go away w help and treatment. Hang in there ☮️💜😊

[Sparsley32]

Thank you for being so vulnerable and posting on this platform for help. Remember that there are highs and lows and you will make it through this just as you have before. Sometimes things get worse before they get better. Your body may be wanting to process some past trauma as well. Sometimes we just have to go straight into it.