SAD sucks balls

[IlMinded]

Hello all. I suffer from SAD, and lately with the weather on the East Coast, its been rather, as you say, gray.....

It is throwing off my anxiety by pushing me to have panic attacks every other day. I take D8 that helps with the panic attacks, but also have PTSD from vascular surgeries, ablations aren't' bad long term, but Jesus do they hurt during and immediately after. I currently have been doing chemical treatment, but my first few were done using lasers and sound.

Then, got screwed out with employer from being in click and then kicked out, which is fine, but its the manner it was done. Now work for an organization I don't care about because whenever I do care, I am told not to worry about it and the task is given to someone else. I suck it up to poor leadership/manager, as he was my co-worker at one point, and know I need to move on, but dealing with the perks of working with said company. Wife is not working so she can focus on our 3 kids in elementary school. So I now have the "quiet quitting" BS the news media blew up with past few months.

Anyway, just typing here to vent. This is just helping me calm down as I'm just sick of this all. No meaning with work, long commute, unable to switch jobs until wife can pick up salary requirement slack.

[metalminded]

same situation except I’m 53 and my wife is on SSD which, not to diminish your situation, is worse because she will never be back at her earning power.

[Darkhouse]

Sounds like you got more than just SAD going on... On the west coast, we just had 19 straight days of rain, never seeing the sun, that's a doozie for sure. But you're dealing w so much more. What you're doing for your family is very admirable, many people wouldn't do it, so pat yourself on the back for sticking around. I think of my FIL who worked at the local mill for 25 years doing the same thing all day long, every day, day in day out...mind-numbing work, because it put food on the table and the kids thru college and provided a retirement for him and his wife. Can you imagine, 25 years, pulling the same lever every single day all day long? And he's a smart guy too. How his mind didn't just fester, idk... I don't know why I thought of that story. I know that your suffering right now, and I'm sorry. You are a good dad and husband for making these sacrifices. Hopefully the joys of family will outweigh the trudgery of the bummer job, at least in the short-term. I admire both of you making these sacrifices for your kids. They will be better people for it, this time means so much... Hang in there, the sun is coming out soon super-dad...