i can't stand myself. I feel needy and unworthy. My self esteem is in the toilet, and I have hidden inside since 2019. I can't seem to socialize, or want to, but I think I need to, just to prove that I can.
My wife's family seem to be shunning me now, along with all my neighbors. My logical side says these things are far-fetched, but my sensitivity to others says otherwise.
I even feel guilty looking at the happy face at the bottom of this compose screen.
Please teach me how to be stoic, since that seems like a path to happiness. I'd also really like to find a support group for addicted parents, and for PTSD.
After I wrote and posted this, I saw some other posts, one titled "Am I being pathetic?". I saw that it was 3 years old and had zero likes or comments. I have little hope that my post will be read, and even less that it will be replied to. Glad I used a fake name.