Social Anxiety, night anxiety and messed up sleep schedule

[Against_the_current]

So these days i moved out, i was sick and i was feeling too unwell to sleep but now i'm physically better and still can't maintain a normal sleeping schedule. I can't sleep between 2am and 5am and more often the hours around them. If i go to bed early, i always wake up at 2am. If i go to bed late, there's no chance of going to sleep before 5am espessially when i'm feeling bad at 2am and i'm trying to find a way to soothe myself and it only gets worse and worse. I was basically going to sleep at 7am and waking up at 5pm. If i had classes and had to wake up during the day, i would come home and immediatelly fall asleep and wake up at 2am and not feel sleepy till at least 7am. I tried to stay awake a full day so i can sleep normally, it didn't work. The only thing that worked was having exams one morning so even though i fell asleep at 5pm and woke up at 2am i got meds and kept on sleeping till it was time for the exams. But today im on my messed up sleep again. I just can't. My anxiety is insane. Espessially social anxiety. I was at a birthday today and i was already out of social battery, i was feeling even too shy to buy or order food so i desided i will just survive the day on birthday Cake. I got home after the birthday Ended and after i walked one girl to the train station because she has insane anxiety like me, she confessed to me about her struggles. I felt so good she trusts me. She has birthday too this friday. And i came back, telling myself i will just play videogames, stay alone, and go to sleep when i feel hungry. Then the guy that lives with me knocked on the door. He asked If i'm using the clothes drier, i gave him the drier, then he asked If i have had dinner. I haven't had even breakfast. I said I haven't. He likes cooking so he said I can have some of his goulage (idk how it's written), i got anxious because i don't want to be a burden and get his food but also i don't want to refuse and also i have refused 2 times and also i was hungry and had nothing so i agreed. But then i realized how awkward i feel eating and that i don't was trying this dish for the first time and didn't like it much and was feeling anxious not emptying my cup and tried to dodge not emptying my cup by saying i was sick and i shouldn't eat spicy but then i realized i probably insulted his cooking by calling it too spicy. I paniced and i sorta overshared online. And i paniced about it too and delieted everything but i still feel like some of my friends saw it. Social anxiety is insane. Social anxiety makes me feel like i did something bad and then do worse things to repair the bad thing and the worse things snowball until my brain feels like it's being fried at 5am. Now it's 5am. He was trying to be nice to me, why am i such an idiot?! I thanked multiple times. The kitchen is his. I have only a bed room and a bathroom. If he gets mad at me i can't cook and do laundry at all. Also my friends are cringing about me living with a guy, kinda shipping us but all i do is panic, i still have ptsd from my past roommates, we are more like neighboir and he has a girlfriend, and i also don't feel anything, so If i tell my friends about my weird panic, they're gonna start to cringe me out. Not as If i didn't cringe myself out already. Why am i such an idiot? People try to do something nice for me and i give myself an all night overthink? I'm the awkwardest, cringest person alive. My friends trusted me to share but when i share i feel terrible. Why am i such an idiot?! I'm the cringest person alive

[SoporRose]

I am worried about you. Your depression and anxiety both seem to be getting worse rapidly. I wish I knew how to help. Please do eat. Hunger will make everything seem worse.

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

I'm worried too. 2 years my anxiety and depression are getting worse and worse

[Hidden]

You’re just trying to get used to a different living situation. It will take time. It sounds like he was trying to be nice to you. If you don’t want to eat what he makes it’s okay to say I can’t eat spicy food but thank you for offering , or something like that. Since you’re living with a guy, it might be a good idea to have some kind of long bathrobe or something like that so if you’re taking a shower you can get in and out of the bathroom and you’re not showing off too much skin. Be sure you set some boundaries, you’re paying rent there too. I hope this works out better for you.

[Against_the_current in reply to Hidden]

I have my own bathroom and bedroom and keys so this is nothing to worry about. He was just nice. I'm just having really rough time with my mental health and post trauma functioning