I need support.

[anxious_depressed]

I just cut AGAIN. I hate myself.

[Agora1]

I care about your safety xx

[FauxxTrot]

It sounds like you’re in a lot of pain. Do you want to tell us what’s been going on to make you want to do that?

[anxious_depressed in reply to FauxxTrot]

i relapsed yesterday after over 3 years. The anniversary of my attempt is this week, and there’s been a lot of things reminding me of it

[FauxxTrot in reply to anxious_depressed]

I've cut myself before too. For me I did it to turn my emotional pain into a physical pain that I could actually heal, care for, do something about, then most importantly see it get better. The scars are there to remind us, but mine have new freckles over them and they are healing just like my mental well-being. Maybe try finding a way to express your pain like ripping paper, smashing glass lighting a campfire to watch the wood burn. I've gone to the goodwill before to buy a 50 cent vase just to smash it.

[HereForTheDuration]

Maybe it can help if you help us understand why it is you do the cutting? This is very selfish of me, I'm sorry. I do believe in the release someone in pain gets when they express their feelings and in the process helps someone, like me, understand the 'why' and more importantly the reason behind things.

I have a very personal connection to this and was gobsmacked when I was informed that my most chereished gift was doing this. I had no idea. I felt very ashamed of myself for not seeing the pain in this person. Even today, I have a limited understanding of 'cutting'. It is a form of coping, making the emotional pain come out as physical pain, correct? I did/do awful things to myself, mostly emotional, that has been my way of coping. Now I know how those around me must feel when I self-harm, even if cutting is not my mechanism. I would love to listen, learn and support you.

[coolkitty1934]

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[Agora1]

Thinking of you today and hoping you are safe xx