My People

[Tiberius3]

Throughout my entire life, I have always felt like I am not similar to or understood by most people around me. I think and execute decisions with so much fear and weight than others do. Although I have love and support around me, it still feels so lonely. But every once and a while I find people who get it. And when I’m going through a tough time in my life, sometimes that’s all I want. Is to know that there are other people who feel this weight too. It is exhausting being in my head and my heart. I hope this is a place where I can find my people. If for nothing more than to know that I am not alone.

[just_keep_swimming]

your not alone , I put a lot of weight on my decisions as well and overthink situations that are simple making then more complex than they are .

[Starrlight]

I hear you. Things seem harder for me and experiences scare me more than for others it seems. I’m really sensitive. Things are intensely up and down not just slight mood changes.

[AnxiousSilver]

"I hope this is a place where I can find my people. If for nothing more than to know that I am not alone. "

From my own experience, this is a good and supportive community.

[DodgeDhanda]

Hi T3.

It reads as if U still need to discover the complete U .

U need to help the part of U that some fail to know & enhance the part U do know of.

Honestly for me as long as I'm happy with my decision ( be it right or wrong ) I don't care what others have to say. ( if at work & U try to speak to management & no one answers & U make a decision EVEN if its the wrong decision at least U made one as its better make a decision than do nothing & ur back is that no one in management answered ur call so U did what U thought best.

But I digress. Keep working on U & to hell with others. Its only once we truly know ourselves can we do exactly what we aim to do.

I wish U love & light on ur journey

[designguy]

It sounds like you may be dealing with low-self-worth and low-self-esteem for whatever reason. A lot of us were never modeled healthy self-esteem or taught how to have it and were even punished and shamed for showing any signs of it or being proud of ourselves or trying to stand up for ourselves. Both of my parents also had low-self-esteem themselves.

Another thing to look at is your conscious and more importantly your subconscious beliefs and programming about yourself, others and life so you can decide what beliefs still work for you and reprogram yourself with healthy beneficial ones.

There is a lot of good info on youtube about this. I like the book "Drive your own darn bus" by Julia Kristina and her website/youtube videos, also the youtube videos of Bernadette Logue and the Daily Positive and I did the Break Free program by Dr. Bernadette Sewell.

[Tiberius3 in reply to designguy]

I love listening to Julia Kristina!

[designguy in reply to Tiberius3]

I know, right. She is just awesome.

[HereForTheDuration]

You are not alone. Your post is '....dead on balls accurate' if you were to describe me. I sometimes think about the scene from "The Natural" when Robert Redford takes a walk with Glenn Close's character and feels the comfort/safety enough to share his journey of disappointments and failures that up until then he buried so deep and shared with no one. I relate especially to his feeling of shame for not accomplishing his father's dream that everyone, including himself, were convinced would be his destiny. It turned out the path he took was not at all what he expected.

I still have not found someone to divulge all of my why's, what if's and how come's that consume me daily. Leaving myself open to be so vulnerable and be able to 100% purge myself of my regrets I imagine can only be accomplished with a complete stranger.

[Tiberius3 in reply to HereForTheDuration]

I am slowly learning to open up (with caution) to others I am close to about my constant struggle with the weight I carry. I hope you are able to as well.