Sad honestly don't know how to feel

[hobo18]

So I do don't know where to start I'm I travel like a hobo I'm not sure if that's really important anyway I was in a abusive relationship and ended up getting pregnant and giving my son up for adoption he's 3 years old now it was a open adoption so I get pictures every know and then but it hurts to see him I was just wondering if anyone can talk me though this. It hurts

[Agora1]

hobo18, I feel your pain, your hurt and maybe even your doubts. I've been on the other side

of the coin in being a Foster Mother to a 2y.o. little girl. She had 4 other siblings coming from

a biological abusive and drug related household. After 8 years, all the children were adopted

by their foster parents. That's a long time to be going back and forth on a weekly visiting

schedule. It plays out in psychological trauma.

You on the other hand, did an unbelievable difficult decision as to give your child stability,

normalcy and love *thinking of them and not yourself.

The good thing is that you have an "open adoption" as I have as well. I always tried to

help the biological mother knowing how difficult and heart breaking her situation was.

You are fortunate to see your son grow before your eyes. To be a part of his life.

Once he turns 18, he can make choices for himself and hopefully you can be a part

of his life. You will always be the mom who gave birth to him. I respect you. xx