it’s traumatic

[Adamj]

how could I go from living a vast life to barely be able to even leave my house without freaking out I feel like I’m in a cardboard box. I went from having such a life of going our in nature doing things with family going into stores concerts and I can’t do any of it I just tried going to the store and of course my body was freaking out the whole time THE WHOLE TIME even coming home I was rushing around felt so light and legs felt wobbly feeling like I couldn’t breath then bottom jaw got tight I want my life back so damn bad I seen on my health thing the damn psychiatrist person put I had panic disorder WITHOUT agoraphobia like for real. I’m so frustrated. I’ve dealt with agoraphobia before when I was 16 but it sure as hell wasn’t this bad and didn’t last as long. I want to go back in time so bad I’m tired of this shit I want to live again I’m tired of thinking/feeling like I’m dying and everything being so dark. I want to snap out of it so bad like everyone wants me to. I’ve gone so much further down a hole since July and the whole Chiari malformation bullshit. I try and be like you’ve felt like this before you are okay you will make it through but I guess my brain doesn’t believe it. I want to be able to just take a deep breath and feel that calm come over me I want to feel the endorphins of listening to music again. I don’t feel endorphins anymore no matter what I do it’s horrible no favorite food no favorite music no favorite things nothing gives me a feel good feeling that’s one of the scariest parts.

[Dani20192022]

I have much compassion for you. Do you have a therapist that help you with reframing your thoughts CBT DBT? Can you get any physical exercise?

[Starrlight]

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