honestly sick of living with social anxiety. this isn’t for attention or anything like that. I’ve been having dark thoughts for a few days now. I usually have hours of these dark thoughts, but this one is had.
My lifelong anxiety is debilitating & I haven’t found relief in my 31 years of living. I feel like I’m out of options & im feeling extremely hopeless & helpless.
Hi Jelly, im sorry you are struggling. Jelly Bean what is your favorite thing to do?
Sometimes that helps take your mind off things for the things you like to do. Find more things to like doing to help too.
Thank you, Itz
Jelly Bean im here for you. Couple of days ago I called the hotline cuz I was feeling really depressed and down and ithelped even if you're not suicidal it's a really good place to get support when you feel like you're in critical need or when you just feel really bad I have a hard time . My body is always on alert wherever. I havedark thoughts also. I know that we're needed here on this Earth because we're still here please stay strong I know we could battle this illness always feel free to contact me I will always listen to you. Everbody here will always suoport yo, too. Sendig warm feeling vibes better hugs. I know it's really hard right now but I know that both of us can overcome this together and feel better I wish you the very best your buddy Gg
Have you tried therapy for your social anxiety? There are therapists who specialize in treating it, there is also a lot of information/resources about it on youtube available. There wasn't a therapist near me at the time so I did an online course from the socialanxietyinstitute.org It is definitely possible to recover from SA with commitment and persistence, I hope you get the help you need. It takes courage but is definitely worth it.
Someone reached out to me after this post with some much needed insight & it helped me so much since this post. However, I go to a trauma specialist now… but I’m realizing it isn’t the trauma I’m still struggling with that happened in teenage years/hard drug addiction, it’s actually self hatred & social anxiety that’s stemmed from childhood before I can even remember.
Thank you for these ideas/resources. I didn’t know there were social anxiety specialists. I’m def going to look into it!
That's really good insight on your part. My trauma/c-ptsd and anxiety came from growing up in an emotionally repressive home environment with physical and emotional abuse. I was shamed and punished for expressing even normal anger and for trying to stand up for myself or show any signs of being proud of myself. I was then bullied in middle school and I had no self-esteem and developed the social anxiety and self-hate.
Working on improving my self-worth and self-esteem has really made a big difference in my ability to love and take care of myself. There is a lot of good info about this on youtube, I also found the writings of Dr. Bernadette Sewell to very very helpful and did her Break Free program. She had social anxiety and healed it by healing hear own self-worth.
Getting to the route of your issues to understand your story and uncovering what thoughts and beliefs you are telling yourself about yourself and others is key to healing. It takes persistence and commitment but is definitely possible. Best to you.
thank you for the recommendation! Looking into Dr Sewell now!
You're welcome. Another book I found helpful is "Drive your own darn bus" by Julia Kristina, she also had a lot of good youtube videos.
I feel like I'm going insane. 
I feel like I’m slowly going insane and I’m petrified 
Pain I can’t let go of 
I feel like I'm going insane, my mind is racing
I can’t go on.
