Life is so hard right now!

[Ryleyboy]

I am suffering from clinical depression and it has been so hard! I’ve been here before. Wish I didn’t have this in my life!

[coolkitty1934]

same it can be a real struggle that every single person experiences at least once some of us are just impacted more than others unfortunately im here as a fellow depressed person if you need me

[Ryleyboy in reply to coolkitty1934]

Thank you so much for responding. Like you, I have a history of depression and there has just been a series of events leading up to this one. I am not at all surprised to find myself going through yet another episode of depression. It is so hard to describe how I’m feeling to someone who has not experienced it. Last night I just felt fed up with trying to keep it quiet. The stigma is lifting around the subject but it’s still somewhat there and as you and I both know, This is physical, it is a physical illness involving the mine and mood.

[Ryleyboy in reply to Ryleyboy]

I meant to say involving the mind not mine

[designguy]

What fit for me and one of the things I read about depression is that it can be caused be repressed anger. As a kid I was punished physically and verbally and shamed for expressing even normal anger so I early on learned to repress it. I started learning to get comfortable expressing it in therapy and would mentally focus on who or what I aw angry about and release it and vent by beating the crap out of a pillow. I bought a plastic baseball bat and did the same thing at home when I was triggered and would even go outside with a sledge hammer and do the some thing beating the crap out of big rocks. It definitely helps and feels do good to release it. If I can't beat the pillow or rocks I found just writing the anger out on a tablet, letting it flow and vent, not editing it or worrying about what it looks like, grammar, spelling, etc.... it also helps. May fit for you or may not.