I lost hope and can’t do this anymore

[Adamj]

I just want a good night sleep I just want to feel okay I’m tired of worrying so much like the doctors missed something not even a heart attack I’m now worried that I have an aortic dissection because of such weird pains I get in my chest back stomach being able to lay there and feel my heart beat in my back and feeling this weird like burning in my right chest muscle and how it feels like my left side gets weak sometimes or both arms and randomly feeling lightheaded or like ima pass out or recently my whole left arm seems to be getting bright red and slight warm randomly no swelling it’s hell I can’t take this hell anymore and seeing my mom like not leave her bed I had to clean the bathroom because she made one hell of a mess with bodily fluids like idk what’s going on I can’t be a care taker. I even went to the er last night because I felt funky and of course they say yeah blood work and ekg are fine and gave iv fluids which I felt the fluid start moving through me at first. I just can’t I really can’t anymore I’m NOT suicidal but like idk what to do when I feel like my life is over and I’m dying. I also get this just cold feeling that goes through me. All I get told is “hm” or we’re really not sure or take this antidepressant

[Adamj]

I swear no one understands how severe this is for me. Anti anxiety meds really do do much of anything sometimes they even make it worse

[CL3V3R-G1RL]

ER doctors are there to fix the body. If nothing is wrong with the body, they pretty much wash their hands of it.

Your issues are more of the mind. You have sever anxiety issues. That they are not being expressed physically. Like your back hurting, tingling sensations in limbs, being cold etc.

nor does it help while dealing with this, you have to care for a sick parent.

I understand that part, it’s highly stressful. I’m not a good care giver. I can’t bathe my mother. And I’m a huge germaphobe. I can mopped up urine but other stuff…eh. I need help with. Luckily I have someone.

But I can say taking care of someone Ill and anxiety not in check, you can pick up new fears and worries.

But as I have gotten somewhat control of my anxiety, I can deal with my mom’s health issues a little better.

You definitely need help. Both with your mom and your issues. Meds only work if you have the other piece to the puzzle 🧩 therapy is the other piece. Perhaps a new therapist maybe. Someone that actually understands what you are going through and not making you feel like you are just wasting an hour. Caregiver maybe in your mom’s insurance however thanks to COVID it’s hard to find. Perhaps family members or even girlfriend can help with some duties. That way it’s not totally on you.

I wish you well, Adam because you definitely deserve it. Sending you positive vibes to you and your mom 💓

[Adamj in reply to CL3V3R-G1RL]

thank you I’m so overwhelmed and paralyzed