I lost it!

[Raggedy-Ann]

Yesterday the roofing company was here installing my new black roof. I stayed inside with my dogs or outside in the backyard. When the company dropped off my tiles I asked them to check the color. He said onyx. I can't see my roof from the backyard. I saw the old roof falling off outside. Banging all day lots of workers. At the end of the day I went out to see the sun shining my new gray roof. Gray! I was very clear I wanted black. I freaked out in front all the workers. They accidentally ran over part of my black iron gate too. I wanted the roof to match all of the black fencing. I spoke to the owner and he tried to "handle" me. I started to cry told him I was not able to continue our conversation. I got my deposit back. They left and I sobbed uncontrollably. My meds make it so I can't cry most of the time so when those flood gates opened I cried hysterically.. I called the crisis line and the woman told me to get a lawyer, sue the company etc...I don't want to deal with that kind of ugliness. I wanted to have someone listen, help calm me down, help me figure out how to deal with this man. I told her she wasn't being helpful and got off the phone. I took some anti anxiety meds and called my brother. He talked me down. He reminded to be thankful I have a new roof. He said he has the same roof and how it looks different in different light. He was right. Meds started kicking in so I got off the phone. I remembered I need to manage my expectations. I made chocolate banana cream pie and fell asleep for a few hours. I had't freaked out like that in a long time. I am still tired and eating pie.

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Awww, I’m sorry. It’s understandable why you got upset. It’s rough having all these guys over banging on your roof making a ton of noise. Some days just suck. I’m not having a great day either. Enjoy the pie you made.🙂