Is there any relief from grief?

[Milkshake_15]

My grandpa had a stroke then died a year later and I just cannot move on from everything I lost when he passed away. My entire life changed into something that bears scarce resemblance to what it was before.

Is there any end to grief? It's been years now but time has only made it worse. I'm afraid to let myself like anything or trust anyone because almost everything I used to love became everything I lost. I numbed myself to the pain while it was happening, but now it's thawing and I feel inconsolable. I've tried to adjust to my "new normal" but I can't. I just want to go home, to the life I used to have. People tell me to hold onto the good memories, but they only cause me pain because I miss everything about the way my life used to be.

I know grief doesn't magically go away and becomes a part of you, but does it always hurt this much? 😖

[Nothingnoted]

Hi Milkshake, Im so sorry for the loss of your grandpa. My mom was my best friend and she passed away almost 20 yrs ago. Although your grandpa is not with you in the physical presence he is still with you. Someone had told me that they are even closer to you even when they were physically present with you. When i was visiting my moms grave a dragon fly flew up to my face and lingered there for more than 5 minutes. There was one time i hada hard leaving the cemetary after I visited her a little bird approached mt car and just sat there with me. There are signs around that your grandpa is still with you I went to this group called Grief Busters after ny mom had passed away. They gave me some advice and told me maybe I should volunteeer. My mom was a senior citizen i voluntereed with senior citizen visiting them through a program for seniors called friendly visitors. Is there anything that your grandpa had a strong interest in? I know that the love that you and your grandpa had is very strong. He is still their with you. The sadness of losing your love lessens over time. Its hard in the beginning. I know that he would want you live a long happy life filled with love and he will alway be by your side. He would always want you to take care of yourself. I will always be here for you🤗