Struggling with decisions about future purposes

[Sabbath_Star]

Hello everyone:

Most of my days have been up and down lately. There are those days that I do a lot and feel really good. There are also the days where I struggle over the main issue that is weighing me down badly and need all the help in the world to get through it without conflict or drama.

I am at the point of time where I ain’t going nowhere and have stopped growing as far as my job is concerned. I do janitorial work one day a week and work with someone who has epilepsy and is also hotheaded. The matter at hand is that I need to leave my job behind and take a break to focus on my mental health. The hard part is the person I work with (though not the boss) I feel they’ll lose it and chew me out really bad that since I am a friend too, that they’ll not be my friend anymore. It’s like a divorce where I can’t and feel too afraid to say anything yet I stay for an example for the purpose of working and staying busy. I feel like every time I work I am on egg shells and at the moment where it ain’t no use to keep going at something I am not enjoying. So I am at a crossroads where I feel like things will not be easy for me after this fallout that I’ll be going to the ER just to escape between appointments with my therapist too. If I need to go through with my decision I feel that it needs to be decided as soon as possible before it destroys my mental health and confidence of mine. I am grateful for all these support groups I can utilize since it does get things off my chest. So I do appreciate you all and all of you wish me luck on this decision. Take good care and remember that we are important and that our own health both physically and mentally should always come first.