My fidgeting or whatever it is, is getting worse

[RCCOLA]

My fidgeting is getting worse. I’m not sure what’s going on. I’m not quite sure if it’s an OCD thing or a way to ease anxiety or anxiety itself. I’m not sure the term “fidgeting” is necessarily appropriate but in bed, for instance, before I go to sleep, I roll on my left then, a few minutes later, to my right. This goes on for a good 20 minutes. I know that may not sound like alot of time but it sure feels like it is. And when I do my sprints, I listen to music with bluetooth earbuds. I constantly keep adjusting them to make the sound as full as possible. The only time I don’t is when I’m in the middle of a 100 meter sprint. I can’t seem to stop it because I keep thinking one more tweak will make the sound perfect….never is though. There are other things too but didn’t want to ramble on forever here.

On a related note, I have clinical depression and major anxiety disorder, had it pretty much most of my life. I’m old. I’m 60. The reason I say this is because I recently came home from the Dr. I decided to discuss my ADD because I can’t focus, never could, I’m all over the place. I never brought it up because I thought I had too much going on already, mentally speaking. I’m sure some of you understand, you just don’t want to bring up one more thing, one more problem. Regardless, I discussed it and my Dr prescribed 15 mg of Dextroamp...Amph….and that really helped for about two weeks and then stopped so Dr upped it to 25 mg. Odd thing about these meds, they actually helped my physical performance. For instance, I was able to run faster, further, without losing my breath as quickly as before. And, it really helped me stay focus, which would benefit my work, especially if I have to present something to others. Problem is, I stopped taking them because I didn’t want this to lead to heart trouble. My children are the most important thing in my life, by far. And the thought of something happening to me and not being there for them is too frightening, too worrisome.

I don’t know…I just get tired…thought I’d babble for a bit…please excuse my subpar grammar and rambling in no particular direction but just plonked this down as it came out of my noggin.

[Hb2003]

I have been doing that recently too i don't know if its because i sleep in a uncomfortable bed or position

[toxonix_]

I think a lot of people with chronic anxiety have this issue. When anxious, it's difficult to calm down and let the mind go off into sleep. Wakefulness is the term I think applies here: you are tired, you need sleep, but your body/mind have trouble calming down. Counting and breathing meditations or guided meditations can be helpful. I'm also struggling with this.

[RCCOLA in reply to toxonix_]

Thank you. I'm grateful for your opinion and think what you said makes good sense.