How can i be so traumatized? Ptsd is messing me hard, nightmares again

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Nightmares again. About dad. What if mom heard me talking in my sleep? Even If she hasn't these nightmares are messing me up. The hwole ptsd is messing me act in ways that i harm myself and push away people. I'm broken

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u t not asking for nightmares anymore than anyone traumatized ........people get mauled by dogs or horses....have perm imprssions and trhe brain recorads.....pain ane emotion in deeper areas brain v higher reasoning areas.......hihgher reasoning says brig....u can handle stage friht and oher areas......say........ya.....like we now bettr man.....we aint listeningt to this ....it gonon be fun time stuff....

some people born littel perforers

others like me comfortalbe as insuctor ...sure 45 yers doint th same hhtingt. thing....fidn

cut yerslf soeme slack..........i work to build my confidence in certian areas and rebuld........when we have crash ane burners in jumping....we start over and go back rto fundamentals...all or mst ahel5es atheles do......

no brainer.....done it a miiion times...fall back regroup retool moe forwrd

move forward......thats how it works for us and rebuild confidence...

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Need to

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what ever works for each

maybe ll put a lucky penny

or sign withsmily

or write a note to me from pretend friend......

what ever ...it takes.....were all

we got...we cant afford to listen to critcs.

i cant self defeat or lsten to distructive p;e;ple or etc.

i cant i wont..