Lesson

[Starrlight]

There are lessons in our suffering. If we focus on the suffering we continue to hurt. If we focus on the lesson we continue to grow.

*I heard of this quote from my friend who is an author of helpful books about relationships/meditation/mental health ... she talks a lot about binge thinking which is what I’m caught up in today, thinking to much about things in my little world. I think if we can step out of our worries and show compassion and help to others we will receive these things in return in our lives.

[Agora1]

Great Post Starrlight xIt is so true my friend. With everything good or bad in our lives, we

learn from that experience, making us a better, stronger person xx

[Starrlight in reply to Agora1]

I feel weak at the moment but we are stronger than we think. I’ll come out of this period strong. Maybe I am strong right now, taking the pain as best I understand how to... I have to believe my mind can become healthier and I try to nourish it with positivity but lately I just binge on negative thoughts. I was recently triggered and have ptsd really badly right now. My son could have died from a good allergy but he is living and I am grateful but traumatized. It’s like my brain is stuck on this strange level that I thought I was through. I guess we need reminders when we mess up. I messed up. I went back to drinking. I was so sick and now I am recovering. Again. But I must be where I’m supposed to be. I find myself looking to the spiritual world more when I am suffering a lot. So there’s always a silver lining, a blessing along with the seemingly bad. I’m learning and growing. Thanks for being here beautiful Agora.

[Agora1 in reply to Starrlight]

We are always in "learning" mode. I hope your son continues to stay healthy from his allergies.

I see the Love of your Children as a Powerful weapon to continue

forward and stay strong. xx

[Starrlight in reply to Agora1]

Yes! They are my little and very strong rocks that keep me going and love flowing. I am in so much pain right now that to escape, the idea of death is occurring in my mind. I keep wishing there was some way out of my suffering. So I will keep loving abd love more. And see, maybe things will get better fir me.

[AnxiousSilver in reply to Starrlight]

Do you journal at all?

[AnxiousSilver in reply to Agora1]

So true, we never stop "learning".

[Starrlight in reply to AnxiousSilver]

I do. Thanks for that reminder. I think I have to embrace the anxiety instead of planning for the “what if’s” or distracting ...I am exhausted from this shit and no one in my family seems to care which makes it scary for me. Also I won’t meet with my therapist until late next week. Ugh I’m so done!

[AnxiousSilver in reply to Starrlight]

F&F, we are here.

Second, sometimes I just need to journal to let out stress if the weather is not the best for walking.

Finally, (and again) We are here.

Hugs.

[Starrlight in reply to AnxiousSilver]

What does F&F mean? Thanks for being here. I feel like I’m beginning to relax now. My face is twitching and I’m yawning a lot.

[AnxiousSilver in reply to Starrlight]

F&F = First and Foremost.

[AnxiousSilver]

I'm a long checklist "to do" person myself. It feels good to scratch things off the to-do list.

One day at a time, and if I can't get something done today, then I will revisit it tomorrow.

Either way, I will do my best to get it done.

[Starrlight in reply to AnxiousSilver]

That’s a really good idea to let yourself leave something to try again tomorrow that is where I’m at I just can’t seem to get out enough to focus on anything I just need to sleep.

[AnxiousSilver in reply to Starrlight]

"I just can’t seem to get out enough to focus on anything"

As a Severe GAD sufferer. Things like being fidgety, fog headed, lack of concentration, (even though I'm doing my best to concentrate) happens.

I can read something on my Amazon Kindle reader, and then my mind starts to wander, and I want to give up reading for the moment out of frustration. So I'll switch to another eBook to grab my attention, or open up my music player to keep going, and then eventually switch back to what was I was OG reading.

It's not fun, but it's little things like that that I need to do.

& If it gets too overwhelming. Then I either come here, or sometimes I just want to be alone, and open up my Bible and read something from the Gospel of John, and then my mindset is more open to give all my worries to God, cuz he can handle it waaaaaaay better than I can.

JMO.

[Starrlight in reply to AnxiousSilver]

Silver, thank you so much. The fact that you can understand what I am going through is a big help. And mentioning God I’d good as it reminds me that He is in control so I need not worry over worrying ha! How are you doing?

[AnxiousSilver in reply to Starrlight]

"How are you doing? "

Thanks for asking.

I could be better, but I'm doing better than yesterday, Anything is better than yesterday.

But yeah, I'm trying to give myself a good mental health day today.

Trying to catch up on things, read a little bit, and hang out here.

Cuz this community is one of my favorite mental health tools that I have, and I am grateful for it.

[Starrlight in reply to AnxiousSilver]

I hear ya! Good job hanging in there. Me too I love this place!

[Hidden]

Hello Starrlight, I hope eventually that you will start to feel better. Sending good thoughts and prayers your way. 🙂

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

Awww thank you so much Doll ( can I call you Doll?) I really think the prayers helped as I’m finally feeling better after hours of agony. I feel myself slipping into muscle relaxing sleepy for bed time. It doesn’t hurt that my dog changed her position to be closer to me on the bed. I just love her.I wish I could read her mind. I think she is thinking she loves me too. Well how are you doing? Hope you are well.