Love myself

[Foreverbroken31]

Some how I always end up alone. After 8 years of friendship one single misunderstanding ended it all. It's true what they say never tell anyone all your problems or tell them your whole life. They end up betraying you, leaving you and all you have left is pain and emptiness. But this time I'm not trying or fighting to keep you in my life. I'm done chasing begging and humiliating myself to be the perfect friend you deserve. Because in all honesty you don't deserve me anymore. You said you would never judge me but you can't accept I had doubts about myself and all the confusing things going on in my life. One dumb comment or confession ended up breaking that bond we had after all the we went through after saying we would stick together even though nobody wanted us to be friends. You are my sister and will always be but I have to love myself more now

[fauxartist]

I will say this, yes... unfortunately, some people we thought were friends, were not really as close to us as we may have hoped for. We have to hold our cards close to our chest, as is said when dealing with relationships, and only reveal a bit of our issues at a time when it's appropriate. After some initial time with someone I might want to pursue a friendship or relationship with, I was and always have been up front about my depression so when I do have a down period, I make sure they understand it has nothing to do with them, and this is a chemical thing I just have to go through on my own. But I find most people get too overwhelmed if you tell them every detail of your life all at once. They don't know how to respond or deal with that. So I don't dump my stuff on anyone, I only talk about issues as they may come up, and only after I have gotten to know someone over time.

[Roxylox]

My sympathies. I was let down by a friend too. You must definitely prioritise yourself.

[Genuineguy]

I understand. Sorry you have to go through this. Its hard. But I'm so glad to know you have the self respect to know its OK to have misunderstandings. It shouldnt end friendships

[CL3V3R-G1RL]

I can so relate to this. Cuz this happened to me about 2 years ago. I had a friend who I'll call Essie. And we had been friends for about 5 to 7 years. I remember spending a lot of time on the phone and on chat talking to her about her relationship that she was in with a very emotionally and verbally abusive man. I gave her my thoughts, advice and wisdom. I was her shoulder to lean on. Then covid hit and she was even more miserable because she hated her job and had lost another job. She was working two jobs both were part-time and when covid hit she lost one. She was stuck in a one-bedroom apartment with her parents and her dog. And it was not a comfortable living situation. Fights between the parents and her were happening frequently. The question kept being thrown around about when she is going to move out. Problem is she lives in NYC. And and if you know anything about NYC it's expensive. You cannot make 50k and get a place. So I knew she was sad so I try to stay in touch with her but I soon realize okay maybe she wants to be left alone. So I will only chime in once a month to check in on her and make sure she was okay. And we would talk about how she hated her life and her crappy job. And I admit it got a little tiring just hearing the same thing over and over again. And I just merely suggested like maybe take a break before you get burned out. If you want to pursue a job in photography that's perfectly fine but right now there's no openings. Maybe do something different it might kick start something else that would lead you to your dream. And I think she took it as me saying that she should give up on her dream I don't know how she came to that but she did. But that's not what ended the relationship. The relationship ended because she told me she was now dating a guy that was recommended by our mutual friends. After she told me about him I could already tell dude was not interested in a relationship. He gave all the signals. Sure enough he took her out to lunch and gave her the old it's not you it's me routine. And she was crushed. And I told her that it happened sometimes. But she was really hung up on him. And she was saying no this was meant to be this is the guy I'm supposed to be with. because dude made her feel good about herself. And I told her that's just because you've been with a guy before him that was really lousy and now you spend some time with a decent man you think he is the one but he's just a nice guy. So fast forward dude had stopped talking to her she agreed to stop talking to him to give him quote space unquote. So my mutual friends still hang out with him and during lockdown they continue to hang out with him unbeknownst to Essie. When I talk to SE she made it sound like her and this guy have been talking again they're speaking. They're becoming friends again and I walked right into a hornet's nest cuz I mentioned about him being an NYC. And she said no she hadn't seen him because of lockdown He's been stuck in New Jersey and I was like I messed up. Now what do I do Do I tell her actually he's been in NYC a few times he's broken quarantine rules and been chilling and NYC or do I just lie to her and say oh I must got confused or something. So I decided honestly is the best policy and I told her. And she went off the deep end she was like that can't be I've been stalking his IG stories they're all in New Jersey He's been in New Jersey. And I said no he's hung out with our friends and NYC she was livid she was upset and she told me to go F off. I tried contacting her on her birthday wishing her a happy birthday and turn out I'm deeply sorry. I never meant to hurt her feelings. And again she told me to f off. I checked in on her once a month even during a time when I found out her brother was fighting cancer I sent my my deepest sympathies and empathy because I've had family members who battle cancer. And got nothing. I even took the time to like mute all my social media from her cuz I didn't want to upset her with my happy photos of my life I guess so yeah. Seven year friendship ended because of a guy who she isn't seen for even dating and she can't let go of. And is seen other people cuz according to my mutual friends they went to his birthday party and he was literally smashing on some other chick in his bedroom and they were all in the living room having to listen to his love making to this other woman. So yeah that definitely sucks and that hurts.