Slowly falling apart

I had a decent job with benefits, worked there 11 years and lived at home with my parents. But when my mom got medical issues she went on dissability. We worked at the same company but different hrs and departments. Once the company fired her. She was always complaining about it nonstop. It made me depression get worse and worse. I started having panic artacks at work. After awhile i could not take it anymore. I put in my 2 weeks. A month later had a different job. But yet changing jobs didnt help. I worked at the new place about 9 months and honestly it made my depression worse😔 i quit that job. Now im unemployed. I have money saved so im ok for a couple months. I realize my parents are my trigger. They make me feel so useless, so inadequate that i dont want to live. I dont want to harm myself but i just want this thing i call my life to be over.

[hypercat54]

Hi you were saying in one post that you felt ready to leave home? It does seem the only way you will be able to get your own life is to do exactly that. You will never be able to have the life you want under your parents roof. Get another job and save to move out is my advice.

[MCAJ]

Do you live with them? Try to be with some people that support you, and try to think of all the good things you do, and your strengths. This will pass and you will get better if you take care of your needs first. Treat yourself with a small thing every day, it helps.

[GymNeed]

That is so terrible. Sound as if a small step would be just moving out on your own if you can afford it. Find a roommate that’s positive and go for it. Maybe You got a love your parents from a distance