Helping helps me. I had this sort of insight

[Against_the_current]

I was feeling low (I'm not gonna say why and this is probably the first time i don't) and then a girl from my course in university messaged me. She said she's going through a break up and so. I mobilized myself and while helping i feel better. I forgot my own stuff. I felt like i gave hope to somebody. All other friends of her were like "well, why did you tell him this" and so and i was like i don't even know what is going on but i'm with you, i will listen, i will give advice If you want them but i can't garantee and i can just support you, come over, whatever you want. And when she said "You're the first person telling me kind things" my heart melted. Also my roommate can't charge her phone and i will wake her up. And i think i'm gonna start an appreciantice program as a psychologist but i don't know whether i'm in the state for so. Also it's like the contact is work 240 hours and get like 300 dollars. But with everything going on with the world i don't even know whether i will have the chance again. The appreciantice program is fund by the European union and If a war breaks out i won't be able to go to work, nor them to pay me (even this bit) and probably the economy will crash and i will need this money. Here we have a new prime minister, that is a rookie in being a prime minister. And he wants to fire the minister of warfare because he refuses to sent planes to Ukraine. But If we send planes to Ukraine, Russia might invided us. And If Russia invides us, we're doomed. We're in NATO but i'm not sure If they're gonna engage and If they engage the things might go worse and that's why they might not do it. In both ways we will be screwed up even more than the coronavirus and my dad and mom traumatizing me. Oh, this started of as something positive. So much worries, idk If i'm able to work. Or whether it would help me.

[propjock]

Welcome, and thank you for telling us what is happening.

Do you have to decide right away about the psychology program? If you start, can you change your mind without hurting your future.

Decisions can be so hard.

A lot of people feel better when they help someone else. That is our purpose. We are made for that. Sometimes we have to know when to stop, though.

Peace and protection for your homeland, and wisdom for your leaders.

[Against_the_current in reply to propjock]

I'm not pretty sure but i think i have time. I tried to go out now and i'm triggered and anxious. My mom's tantrums are haunting me.

[Rick1on1]

Breathe Real-Me...breathe!

Helping others is great therapy for people suffering from Depression and Anxiety. Keep doing whenever you can.

As for your current situation, there is very little we change about the world we live in. What we do have absolute control over is our attitude. Keep being positive and keeping pushing yourself to a content future and life will sort itself out.

Good luck!

[Against_the_current in reply to Rick1on1]

Thank you. I really needed the reminder to breathe. I'm trying so hard to control everything and help everyone and i have become chronically anxious, burnt out and hypervigiliant

[Rick1on1 in reply to Against_the_current]

You are setting yourself up for failure. Start letting go of the situations that are the most stressful.

Your health is more important!