Please help me I’m begging

[Wishingyoudont]

How do you deal with going through a divorce, having no friends, no family and two teenage kids that you can’t show how weak you are? How do I make it through the day without the darker thoughts? Feeling completely lost and want help before it’s too late. Someone help me please

[b1b1b1]

You do have a family if you have two children. Even if you are divorced, they will still be your family and they will need you. If you harmed yourself you would be placing a terrible burden on them. You should also consider therapy and antidepressants as soon as possible. Remember also that there are always hot lines to call, as well as emergency rooms if you need them.

[Marysblue]

I'm So glad you reached out here. Talking about it helps. I haven't been through a divorce but I've been through some really dark times. Things will get better. Bad times don't last.

Are you in counseling , do you have any coping skills that help? I walk, keep a gratitude journal, read and meditate on spiritual books, watch YouTube videos on mindfulness, self help books. Be aware of

All of your negative thoughts and don't let them convince you they're right.

There are crisis lines you can call for people that will listen too.

Journaling might help.

And you can make more friends. You've now got new friends on here.

[Wishingyoudont in reply to Marysblue]

Thank you so much for responding! I’ve been in counseling and my lady just isn’t helping. I’m on anti depression pills too. My whole world is crashing and just stuck. I’m terrified I’ll let the inner voices win and leave my children with all my hurt plus theirs. It seems like the more I’m struggling the harder it is to get help. I’m scared if I commit myself my ex will take the kids or children and youth will take them from me. I’m just not sure which way to go here?

[Marysblue]

Could you try to add walking 20 minutes a day. It does boost your brain chemicals. Helps with anxiety and depression. Don't wait till you feel like it you may never.

Doesn't sound like your counselor is helping or your antidepressants. Maybe you need to

change up,

Can you tell your doctor , your counselor how bad you feel and you need more help.

It won't last forever. You will get to feeling better again.

Sometimes we just have to sit , be still and feel the feelings. I know how bad it feels.

[Wishingyoudont]

I’ll try walking tomorrow. I have had conversations with my doctor and switching but last time I switched I had a bad outcome. I’m willing to try anything at this point. I wanna fight hard for my kids but then there’s that voice saying they would be better off with someone who is stable. They have no idea of my struggling as they are 13 and 17. I wish I could explain my depression to them but I pray they never know that I have been weak and not this super hero of a mother. They see my smiles and laughter but as soon as they turn their head or leave the room I’m flooded with the emotion and guilt.

[Creo]

be you be strong for your children by being honest. believe this, kids know a lot more than they let on. My children are grown now and have confided in me that they knew about everything. we are human beings not superheroes.

[Strongest123]

Hi, I’m sorry you’re going through this. I myself am going through a bit of a struggle. I have OCD, and severe depression and I recently lost my brother. He passed a month ago and the pain is unbearable. I think it’s important to try and reach for help….Friends, counselor, online support, and exercise I find helps tons. I’ve been struggling a lot lately to say the least. And I’ve found some support groups that are really helpful. I would definitely look into some online support groups. This one is incredible, I’ve been on here for quite sometime and it helps tremendously. Also, start a gratitude journal. Write 3-5 things every morning that you’re truly grateful for. SAMSON

[Joshgw]

I'm really sorry you're going through this. I have a 11 year old son and my wife has considered leaving me. I was recently hospitalized, voluntarily. Just please keep in mind your children love you and need you. That's what keeps me going. It is very hard to find the right treatment team (a therapist and psychiatrist) and the right meds. I have been going through this for 20 years and am also very suicidal. Despite all this I am still here absorbing all the depression pain and anxiety because I can't imagine not seeing him grow up or him and my wife without me and how devastating it would be for them. It took me a long time to realize that. Journaling had been a lifesaver, I starting learning CBT and DBT. After years of not getting the right treatment, which I didn't realize at the time, I think I'm finally making progress. I even went back to work, not functioning like I used to but it is progress. Believe me, I know the pain is gut wrenching and it is a very slow process. But reaching out here is an accomplishment just in and of itself. It shows you want to live. I didn't realize any of this myself until recently. Please give yourself credit which I have trouble with myself. We're all pulling for you here and please get in touch if you need to talk.Josh