Thinking about death

[Lookingforhope20100]

It late at night where I'm at and I can't fight my depressive thoughts. I think about my dad and if I will see him when I die or if I will just forget the life I had and just move on and when you do die do you relive your greatest hits. I can't help but feel like there has to be more after this that all the pain will end and you will be happy with the loved ones that have left you but at the same time dying and forgetting the life you had to fight so hard to live also seems like a peaceful way to go I'm a Christian my heart is with God and I know what he says happens but what if that's not right what if you just proof away your soul forgotten your light gone. Sometimes I sit and wonder what will happen but I'm not ready to find out just yet there is still so much for me to do like fall in love get married watch my daughter grow and get married play with my grandkids I'm not ready to see what's on the other side but I'm not scared of it either because in the end I know the choices I made will pay off and I will live in bliss wether we forget or remember or just poof away it will be worth it in the end I just hope before I die I get everything I ever wanted and more and that moments before like in the movies my life will play out one last time reliving the greatest hits and I can be with my true love once I find him.

[Hidden]

Hey, you okay?

[Lookingforhope20100 in reply to Hidden]

I wasn't but I'm better now thank you for asking not a lot of people ask if I'm okay in my life they don't care

[Hidden in reply to Lookingforhope20100]

Awww, I'm sorry about that. That doesn't feel good.You're welcome! Glad you're feeling better.👍

[gilded_masquerade]

I’m glad to hear you’re feeling better. It’s natural to wonder why lies on the other side of the veil, I often wonder myself.

Growing up, I used to hear “what if death is SO much more peaceful and simple than life is? What if we’re blowing death up to be this thing that is not as bad as it really is?” And sometimes I wonder if there’s some truth to it.

But you are right, you still have so much ahead of you to experience before that happens.

I do my thinking before bed too so I understand that pretty well (thanks ADHD brain 🤦🏻‍♀️). I find that when in struggling to fall asleep, I write my thoughts down, no matter how long it takes and that makes it easier to go to bed. Takes the thoughts and puts them on paper. Might not work for everyone but I find it helps!

It’s okay to think these thoughts, everyone does at some point. Just remember that these feelings aren’t reality!

Take care 🖤