Unwanted unloved

[Anono2022]

Hi ladies and gentlemen... I suffer from multiple mental disabilities and today is a bad day. I feel unwanted , unloved, depressed. I took my meds but they seem to not help. I'm about to call my psychiatrist and see what they say about upping my dose. I am spending my morning listening to depression poems on Spotify. I have no thoughts of harming myself. Just very lethargic all I wanna do is lay in bed and do nothing. If anyone is having same problem please chat with me. I would love to communicate with someone who is relating.

[Zhangliqun]

I am spending my morning listening to depression poems on Spotify. I have no thoughts of harming myself. Just very lethargic all I wanna do is lay in bed and do nothing.

As someone with very similar mental illness problems -- and for longer than you have been alive -- I can tell you from bitter experience that listening to depression poems and laying in bed and doing nothing are, next to actual suicide, THE MOST DESTRUCTIVE THINGS you could possibly be doing right now. They need to stop NOW. Take it from one who knows, turn off those poems and GET UP!!!

This is because mood disorders are never stable -- by which I mean that they are either getting better or getting worse, depending on your behavior and outlook. Even if you have no thoughts of harming yourself now, just stay in bed and keep listening to poems about depression and you won't be with us much longer. It will get worse and worse until you are in a tailspin with sirens going off in your head and you can think of only one way to stop it. I almost did it back in '94.

On the other hand, if you get out of the bed, go and see friends, especially people who know you have this trouble, think about uplifting things and how you can help other folks, it will start to get better. You need to be pulled out of yourself to focus on other things than how you're feeling at each moment. You need the sound of other voices talking about different things which knocks the thought patterns out of your head and helps you focus on positive things. Every moment you spend out of yourself this way is a moment the mood disorder beast is starved rather than fed. People are happiest when they are not thinking about themselves at all.

This is times a hundred for people with mood disorders. The Devil especially likes to get us in a corner and isolate us with our own thoughts (seasoned with his suggestions and goading of course) til they become an ear-bleeding feedback loop that makes us give up and jump off the ledge and into his mouth forever.

I have not been cured per se, but though I still have bad days, I have gotten well enough that life is very clearly well worthwhile. So between medication and coping skills, the bad days are fewer and farther between, and on average far less severe. Part of getting this much better has been giving folks like me the benefit of my experience. I have learned that God will put me in the path of others like me so I can help them. He will do the same for you.

There are people out there, or maybe even in here, who will, if you don't get up, die by their own hand because they won't have access to the voice of experience -- you. He will make your illness -- yes, you are reading this right -- worthwhile.

GET UP, say again, GET UP!!!!!!

[Anono2022 in reply to Zhangliqun]

Thank you. I appreciate your response. I will try to do so.

[2L84x]

Hi Anono, I hope you are feeling a bit better. Did you have a chance to talk to your psychiatrist? If you're listening to Spotify, maybe find some music that feels soothing or energizing or whatever... When I feel like what you're describing, I feel like it is a major feat to drag myself to the bathroom for a shower. But the shower usually makes me feel better. (Probably makes me smell better, too!

[Daveacr1959]

I agree with zhang. And I can tell you you are loved . Keep telling yourself that 100 times daily if you have to. Things that help me.. I start every morning with the Wim Hof guided breathing exercises free on you tube. The beginner 3 round. You can do it before meals too. 40 minutes of daily cardio exercise does wonders. And after your shower rinse in cool water for 5 minutes. Google cold shower therapy for mental health.

[MaineOtter]

Yes, get out of bed and do something. Go for a walk, go for a swim, go to the gym, exercise helps. Eat good healthy food. Do some deep slow breathing. Talk to a good trusted friend or family member. Focus on positive things, like blessings, beauty in the world, good memories, good friends, good hugs! Pray to Heavenly Father, ask for his help. He wants to hear from you, he loves you. Read scriptures.Giving you a big hug!

Take care

[dolphinluvr1977]

Just checking in with you. How are you feeling today? Are you feeling any better? Have you tried any of the suggestions? Just wanted you to know someone is out here thinking of you and I care!!! If i don't respond back right away it's only because I don't always get to my computer. ❤️🙏