Lonely, unloved, and betrayed

[Amelua]

How many if you out there, have no family to comunicate with, the people you live with have you there without your consent, and only in a way to use you, the one you feel most love for is someone whom you were forced to love and yet you love that person, but that person is just making matters worse for you, and forcing you to take him for therapies, Appts, & Ect.? when all along your diagnosed with Depression, anxiety,and orher illness. Well that's just what I'm living daily. How is a depressed person not gonna feel that DEATH is the best answer to them problems.

[fauxartist]

I sounds like everyone in your life is crossing your boundaries and pushing you to do what they want. Can I ask you to be a bit more specific so I can understand a little bit better. Your anonymous here and be sure to check the box at the bottom of the post:

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[Amelua in reply to fauxartist]

Ever since my childhood, I was mistreated by family, that left me w/o family ti this day. In my teens, I was place in mental health institutions, there I learned epilepsy and depression are 2 illnesses battling eachother inside my body and mind. In 1997 I had a seizure that brought death to my dear loved one. In 2003 I met my current spouse. We were seperated by law issues. I moved to where my spouse lives. In 2011 my spouses son lies and set me up to take legal custody of his son. I fell for it, thinking my spouse would obligate him to take responcibility of the child. The child was diagnosed with health problems, the responsibility of his care was layed on me. That and school issues forced me to leave my spouse 18 hours away from me. I'm in my Apt., alone, bored, worried and with my health problems, this kids health and behavior problems. What's the answer? DEATH? I think YES, for that's the only way my spouse won't turn on me for dropping that child away from my problems, that's the only way I won't feel hurt, regret, or guilt for doing something to releive me from a great deal of problems, stresses, and pressures. I have nobody else to live for anyway!

[gogogirl in reply to Amelua]

Your spouse won't turn on you? I still don't follow this, but it still sounds like your partner is responsible not you. Sounds like you were coerced into something you did not want and that is not fair at all- you need a life.

[hypercat54]

Hi I am not sure how you can be forced to live somewhere you don't want to and how you can also be forced into helping someone else? It sounds quite bizarre to me. x

[hypercat54 in reply to hypercat54]

Oh just read your response. I don't get how you could accept legal responsibility for your spouse's son - why wasn't it given to him if anyone?

How can legal issues separate you from your partner? He's not in jail or anything is he? This child isn't yours so you need to free yourself from him and get him back to those whose responsibility he is.

Why can't you now live with your spouse? Surely it's your free choice what you can do? x

[Amelua in reply to hypercat54]

Legal responsibility came, because the mom of the child was tossed in prison, the dad's not legally allowed in this country, therefore the child was to be put up for adoption if some family member didn't respond for him. Legal issues seperated me from my partner due to the fact that she's not in this country, I was with her in her country, but the childs health problems school issues forced me to abandon my partner, and I can't go live with my partner because the child needs me here where he's being treated and where he's enrolled in school. AND WHO IS ALL THE PRESSURE ON? ME, MYSELF, AND I.

[gogogirl in reply to Amelua]

Sounds like your partner needs to cowboy up ( pardon me) and free yourself from all of this.

[hypercat54 in reply to Amelua]

Ok can't your partner move to your country and take responsibility for the child which is after all her blood relative? If not then surely her country would be able to help the child?

Otherwise if the situation is intolerable for you you will have to decide between the child and your partner. It obviously isn't working for you so you have to change it so it does. How old is the child now as it sounds like this has been going on for quite a long time. x

[6ixtyon1]

You poor thing....if I understood part of this, it sounds like certain persons are not allowed to be with you in your country...so sorry; plus, you were the only adult who could care for this child, but that put all of the child's responsibilities on your shoulders...and, it doesn't sound as if the legalities of this arrangement were properly told to you, at the time...and, to make matters worse, NO ONE is taking your own illnessess and stressors into account....is that about right? Wow--sounds like you and the child, at least, could use some support and counseling--separately, or together.

Any possibility of some good pro-bono legal advise for your situation...maybe someone online, like at Avvo.com, legalsupporttoday.com, or myattorneyhome.com, that specializes in health cases, such as this?

I'm not saying that there is any financial compensation to be received in this, but the legal advice that you receive MIGHT steer towards groups--at least volunteers--who could help both of you out, within your own community. It's a possibility worth looking into, if you need respite from all of this--keep us posted and let us know what happens...WE CARE! Good luck and prayers to you!

[Amelua in reply to 6ixtyon1]

Thanks for your response. You're 1 out of 50 who moreless understands my situation. Thanks for your prayers.

[6ixtyon1 in reply to Amelua]

Let us know if you have any new directions, after consulting some free legal advice...I just feel lots of things were not explained to you, properly, at the start--best of luck!