I’m so depressed

[Melancholy12]

I’m still lying in bed. I’m supposed to be packing to go into my new apartment. I’m so alone.

[Onus]

Hi,I just had 2 manic episodes today and i can't get out of bed either. I feel disgusting. Can't get off my phone.

[Melancholy12 in reply to Onus]

Hi Onus so sorry you had manic episodes. I see you had like a post that I made 7 months ago- oh how life can change in a heartbeat.

[Onus in reply to Melancholy12]

Good to know that you're leaving a toxic relationship. It's very courageous, especially at an advanced age. I hope you can find enthusiasm for your new journey. Wish you all the joy

[Melancholy12 in reply to Onus]

I have an apartment to go to and it’s winter and there’s a pandemic for twoyears. . I’m a teacher of little ones and I have nothing to say to them. I do my best to take care of 13 kids each day. A horrible co teacher understanding of my plight but controlling teacher wise. Her classroom looks like something out of hoarders! So many regrets. Saw the red flags but wanted the marriage, house child. Nick is 20 now I love him so much but I see my mistakes. Nick is in college and will live in both houses. I realize I have to be kind to myself and I just wish I had a friend nearby to help me. Even Just hug me! I’m sending a virtual hug to everyone out there.!

[Starrlight in reply to Melancholy12]

((((((((((( hug ))))))))))))

[Kittykitt in reply to Melancholy12]

Hug Many hugs.

[PeaceNeed]

I know how u feel. 62 yrs old and can barely function. Have to arrange for benefits healthcare seeing psychs....etcOn cocktale of drugs that are habbit forming fro psych.

[cmsidb]

I think we are all silently suffering from this crippling disease. I pray for all of u and myself. These things shall pass and greater things shall come.

[Marysblue]

You have support here. Hope your day improves. Fight back the thoughts that are wearing you down. I am fighting them too.

[PolarBear97]

You’re not alone. You’re reaching out and I think I’m not alone when I say each person in this forum wants you to be well and feel better. And here’s a hug. Please hang tough-it’ll get better.

[Lovetheoutdoors]

I left a very unhappy controlling relationship after 22 years. Then in all the quiet I missed the stress in some unbalanced way. But a few weeks in I found the freedom I had wanted for so long so peaceful. The year before I had been diagnosed with breast cancer and lost my wonderful dad. It was time for me to start my own life. It became wonderful. That was 32 years ago. May you find peace in the little things that make you feel good. Gradually any misgivings what ifs things that hold one back will be over your shoulder. Sending hugs. We all care x

[Melancholy12]

Thank you so much for all your wonderful posts. They have made me feel better. I’m realizing how lonely I feel through this. Also I’m 62 and I never developed some real interests. I feel like a shell of a person walking around in a haze. It’s hard to be at work depressed.

[PeaceNeed in reply to Melancholy12]

Its impressive to me that anyone suffering from depression can remain employed. Anxiety and depression have derailed me. Keep on moving forward.

[Melancholy12]

I’m adding another comment. Thank you forum - I was just heading back to bed all morning. Your posts have given me strength this morning. It’s a new day. The coffee is brewing. The dishwasher is on. I’ll talk to the psych later this afternoon. I have so much to tell all of you on this forum. But first thank you.

[KindredKate]

I am glad you reached out. We can only support each other if we let someone know we are hurting. I had sold my home a while back and at the last 3 days before the sale was complete, I was the same way.

I was paralyzed by thoughts of leaving my " safe place" of 11 years. My brain simply could not fathom someone else living in my sanctuary. I lay on the floor for hours and could not pack up the last room.

While I now see it was time for a new, better place to be, I could not accept it was time to go.

I wish I could say the feelings will pass, but I REMEMBER those feelings 16 years later.

Thank you for sharing your situation.

If you want someone to listen to the details, I am available to lend you my ear.

Love,

Kate